6

The Arbai ruin on Grass is, in most respects, like all Arbai ruins: enigmatic, recently abandoned—in terms of archaeologic time—and speaking of some mystery which man can feel without comprehending. Other cities of the Arbai, those found elsewhere, are populated by wind and dust and a scattering of Arbai bones. So few Arbai remains have been found in those other cities that man has questioned why, with such a meager population, the cities should have been so large. They are large in terms of size, of perimeter, if not in terms of height or mass. They sprawl. Their much-crafted streets curve and recurve; their carved housefronts arc gently in concurrence. No vehicles have ever been found in any of the cities. These people walked or ran about their mysterious business, whatever it may have been.

Each city has a library. Each has a mysterious structure in the town square which is identified variously as a sculpture or a religious icon. Outside each city are other enigmatic mechanisms which are thought to be garbage disposers or crematories. A few have suggested they might be transportation devices, no ships having ever been found. Some people think they may be all three. If they are furnaces, the bodies of the inhabitants of the cities could have been burned, which would explain the sparse scattering of remains. Equally well, the inhabitants might have moved on somewhere else. The diggers and theoreticians cannot agree upon either alternative, though they have argued learnedly for generations.

In the more representative Arbai cities only a few whole skeletons have been found, always in ones or twos behind closed doors, as though those Arbai who had stayed behind after the others had gone were too few to attend to the obsequies of departure. Not so upon Grass.

On Grass bodies lie by the hundreds in the houses, in the streets, in the library and the plaza. Everywhere the Green Brothers dig, they find mummified remains.

Most of the digging over the years has been done by strong young men who have had little interest in what they uncovered. Inevitably, however, there have been a few who found themselves fascinated and enthralled by the ancient walls, the ancient artifacts, the ancient bodies. Some few have willingly given their lives to this work, applying all their intelligence to it. Sometimes there have been two or three of these fanatics at a time.

But only one man is currently focusing his intelligence upon the Arbai. He, like others before him, has learned to hide his genuine interest from those in authority. Brother Mainoa, once a miserable young acolyte of Sanctity, long since exiled and grown to suck-toothed age, to the shaggy gray locks and the wrinkled eye-pockets of an elder though to none of the honors some find in that estate; Brother Mainoa, like his predecessors an amateur, a lover of his work, has found his heart’s home amid these ancient stones. He has come to consider these trenchlike streets his own, these his dwellings and plazas, these his shops and libraries, though there is nothing in any of them that he can use or believes he will ever truly understand. Mainoa has uncovered almost half of the Arbai bodies himself. He has named them all. He lives out most of his life among them. They have become his friends, though not his only friends.

Of an evening, Brother Mainoa sometimes went away from the dig to a nearby copse where he could sit on a kneed-up root with his evening pipe, leaning against the trunk of the tree as he talked to the air. Tonight he reclined on his accustomed root with a sigh. His bones hurt. Not unusual. Most nights his bones hurt and some mornings, as well. Sleeping in barely heated quarters on a sack stuffed with grass didn’t help much, though he’d been less achy since he’d fixed the roof. He took a deep puff of fragrant smoke, let it out slowly, then spoke, as though to himself.

“The purple grass, now, not that Cloak of Kings stuff but the lighter purple with the blue bloom on it. that goes well with the rose. Tests out a complete protein mixed about two to one, very sustaining. Flavor’s nothing to proclaim at daily prayers, but it’ll come, it’ll come.”

A sound as of some huge, interested purring came from the tree, high above the old man’s head.

“Well, of course the yellowgrass is the old standby, just before I left the Friary last time to come down here to the dig, Elder Brother Laeroa told me he’d improved on it. I don’t know whether to believe that or not; it’d be hard to do. Yellowgrass is almost perfect as it is, just that there’s so little of it. It wants the tall orange stem on the sun side of it and something lower, like little green or middle ‘zure, on the shade side, the blessed angels know why, but that’s the way it is. Elder Laeroa says he’s tempted to plant it in stripes and see how it does, but that’d stick out like a sore thumb....”

The purring again, with a note of interrogation.

“Of course they watch us,” sighed Brother Mainoa. “Listen to the young Brothers, the cloud crawlers, the ones that wallow around up on that net among the towers. Listen to them tell it. What they see is eyes out there in the grass, staring at the Friary. Of course they watch us. That’s what makes it so hard finding things out.”

Nothing from above. Brother Mainoa risked a look straight up, seeing nothing but the pale sky through a thatch of twig and leaf, one star pricking out at the zenith, like a single sequin dropped from the skirt of a careless angel. A little to his left, so high that it caught the final rays of the sun with a silken glimmer, he could see a few strands of the net among the towers at the Friary itself, just over the horizon.

“Talking to yourself again, Brother?” said a reproving voice. Brother Mainoa started. The figure under the neighboring tree was half hidden in shadow. The voice was that of Elder Brother Noazee Fuasoi, deputy head of the office of Security and Acceptable Doctrine at the Friary, and what the blazing hell was he doing down here at the dig!

“Just muttering, Elder Brother,” Mainoa murmured as he rose and stood respectfully, wondering if the man had followed him, and if so, how long he’d been standing there. “Muttering about the dig, trying to figure it out.”

“Sounded like gardening to me, Brother.”

“Well, yes. That, too. Trying out effects in my head, so to speak.”

i”Bad habit to get into, Brother Mainoa. Disruptive of the silence and demeanor of the order. Clinging to such bad habits is probably why you’re still assigned to digging up ruins rather than to the more dignified duties your age would warrant. If you’d behaved properly, you’d have been assigned to a desk job back at the Friary a long time ago.”

“Yes, Elder Brother,” said Brother Mainoa obediently while thinking something not at all obedient about those who were assigned to desk jobs at the Friary. “I’ll try to curb the habit.”

“See that you do. I wouldn’t want to call you up before Eldest Brother Jhamlees Zoe. Eldest Brother Jhamlees takes his Doctrine very seriously.”

At least that was the truth. Jhamlees Zoe was too recently arrived to have calmed down yet. Still trying to find something on Grass to convert. Mainoa sighed. “Yes, Elder Brother.”

“I came down here to tell you you’re assigned to escort duty. We have a recalcitrant acolyte coming in from Sanctity. Brother Shoethai and I brought a car down from the Friary for you to use when you pick him up tomorrow morning.”

Brother Mainoa bowed obediently and kept his mouth shut. Elder Brother Fuasoi belched and rubbed his stomach reflectively. “Boy had less than a year to go and he went jerky. Lost his demeanor and had a fit in refectory, so I’m told. He traveled under his birth name. Rillibee Chime. Think up a Green Friar name for him.”

“Yes, Elder Brother.”

“The ship will be in early, so be ready. And no more talking to yourself.” Brother Fuasoi rubbed at his belly again before he started off.

Brother Mainoa bowed humbly at Fuasoi’s retreating back and hoped Fuasoi’s belly would kill him soon. Shithead, he thought. All from Acceptable Doctrine were shitheads. And so was Elder Jhamlees Zoe, the mad proselytizer, cast away here on Grass with nobody to convert and going slowly crazy because of it. Nothing between their ears but excrement or they’d know what was really here on Grass. Anyone with any sense could see.... purr was back above, this time full of quiet amusement. “You’ll get me in big trouble,” muttered Brother Mainoa. “Then what will you have to purr about?”

The hundred-square-mile area which the aristocrats called Commoner-Town was divided into two parts by a precipitous, convoluted knob of stone which was called, half in jest, Grass’s Only Mountain, or Gom. The mountain extended east and west in an uninterrupted wall, a sheer-faced outcropping that ran down on both sides to lose itself in the depths of the swamp forest, making an effective barricade between the permanent and transient. Craftsmen, farmers, merchants, and their families lived and worked north of the barrier in an area they called Commons, centered on the town. The area south of the wall, though largely sloping pastureland, contained the port and all its appurtenances.

Appurtenances included, adjacent to the port on the east, a district containing warehouses for the storage of goods being transhipped, hay barns for winter feed of Commons’ livestock, various respectable shops and amusements run by local citizens, the Port Hotel, and the hospital. This area, including the port itself, was called the Commercial District.

Also included was an area on the west side of the port, where buildings blazoned with tawdry glitter stood along Portside Road, where the sensees stayed open around the clock and where visitors routinely stepped over bodies without worrying much about it. Not many of the bodies were dead; few of them were seriously wounded; some of them were still busily engaged. The crowded buildings led an indefinable stink made up of drugs, dirt, and various biological exudates. This disreputable area took its name from its road and was called simply Portside.

In addition to the Commercial District and Portside, the southern area contained about forty square miles of common hay meadow and grazing land, sloping on the east, south, and west from the high plateau of the port down to the swamp forest.

Connecting the port areas and Commons through a notch cut through the wall of Gom was Grass Mountain Road, a well-traveled thoroughfare which ran along the east side of the peak past the order station and the tall, solid gates occasionally used to block all traffic. It was not unknown for freighter crews to emerge from Portside establishments in the waning hours of the night determined to seek the extraordinary pleasure that comes from disrupting the sleep of ordinary people. Under such conditions, the gates were shut. Usually, however, traffic moved along Grass Mountain Road between port and Commons with no hindrance.

The port was busy, far busier than the planetary population could have warranted on its own behalf. Grass lay at a topological crossroads, an accessible destination in qua-space that coincided with a planet in real-space, and this alone made it valuable. The aristocrats, isolated on their estancias and concerned with other matters, had never considered how advantageous Grass’s location was. They would have been amazed to learn that the wealth of Grass was not, as they continued to believe, concentrated in the estancias, but was in fact held in off-planet banks by a sizable fraction of the people of the town. Few bons ever came to Commoner Town, and if they came at all, they came no farther than the merchants’ offices. The residents of Commons who went to the estancias kept their mouths shut about town business. What the bons thought of as eternally true regarding their own social and economic superiority, Commons had long since discarded in favor of a more pragmatic view. Without the aristocrats becoming more than superficially aware of it, the Commercial District had gradually become a major transshipment point offering temporary lodging to sizable numbers of travelers.

While waiting for a connecting ship, transients staying at the Port Hotel often went into Commons in pursuit of local color. Sellers of grass cloth and grass pictures and cleverly woven multihued grass baskets shaped like fantastic birds or fish did a brisk business. The purchase of some such gimcrack was as close as any of the transients would come to seeing the reality of Grass. The aristocrats had forbidden aircar tours over the prairies. At one time the Port Hotel had offered tours into the edges of the swamp forest, but after a boatload of influential persons had failed to return, the tours had been discontinued. The only sightseeing was in Commons, which meant a constant easy flow of traffic along the road. Townees were not surprised to see new faces.

Thus, when Ducky Johns stopped early one morning at the Order Station with a beautiful girl in tow, the officer thought no more of it than that some off-worlder had escaped from the Port Hotel and fallen into questionable company. Not that Ducky Johns was a bad sort. She and Saint Teresa were the madams of the two largest sensee houses in Portside, and they often traveled into Commons with their housekeepers and cooks. Ducky was usually at the top of the list of contributors to any charitable cause, if Saint Teresa didn’t have his name there first. Ducky’s machines were well maintained and seldom damaged anyone other than superficially, and none of her girls or boys or genetically altered whatsits had ever tried to kill any of the customers.

“What’s this, Ducky?” the officer, James Jellico, asked. He was a husky and muscular man of middle years, covered with the misleading layer of plushy flesh which had earned him his nickname. “Tell good old Jelly what you’ve got there.”

“Damned if I know,” replied Ducky, sketching helplessness with both shoulders, the flounces on her tent-dress quivering in response to the mountain of shivering flesh beneath. “I found it on my back porch, under the clothesline.” Her flutelike voice made it a plaint, minor key. Her spangled eyebrows arched and the fringes of her tattooed eyelids drooped across her cheeks.

“You should’ve taken it back to the hotel,” Jelly said, giving the girl a hard look, which she returned with a wide, innocent eye.

“I tried,” Ducky said, sighing and pursing baby-lips, waving a baby-hand, the wrist braceleted with gems between tiny rolls of fat. “I’m not a fool, Jelly. I thought the same as you. Off a passenger ship, I thought, waiting around for another one. Wandered out of the Commercial District and got lost, I thought, just as you did. I asked it its name, but it didn’t have a thing to say for itself.”

“Mental, you think? Drugged up?”

“No sign of it.”

“Maybe it’s one of those, what you call ‘em, de-personed things they sell on Vicious.”

“I looked and it isn’t. It’s been used some, but it hasn’t been tampered with, not the way they do there.” “So what did the hotel say?”

“The hotel picky-pecked at its little keyboards and winky-winked at its little screens and told me to take it away. Not theirs, they said. They didn’t have any like this one, and if they did have, all theirs were accounted for.”

“I be damned.”

“Yes. Exactly what I said. Couldn’t be a Commons townee, could it?”

“You know every one of ‘em as well as I do, Ducky. You know every face and every figure and if any of ‘em puts on five pounds or insults his sister-in-law, you’d know and so would I.”

“Well, we both know what that leaves, Jelly That leaves the estancias, that does. Lots of unfamiliar faces out there. But that’s very puzzling indeed, isn’t it, my dear? If it had come from there, we’d have seen it.”

Aircars going between Commoner Town and the estancias were permitted to land only at the car terminal at the center of town or at the port. Any aircar landing at the port or in town would be observed. If this lovely creature with the strange eyes had turned up either place, surely somebody would have seen it.

“Off a ship?” hazarded Jellico.

“You know the silly regulations as well as I do, Jelly, dear. Passengers and crew off, fumigate at every port. How could this have lived on a ship while it was being debugged? No, it didn’t come off an empty ship. And it didn’t come from the hotel. And it doesn’t belong to me or to Saint Teresa or to any of the other bitty bit-players down in our place, no it doesn’t. I’m afraid it’s your problem, Jelly. Yours alone.” Ducky Johns giggled, the ruffles on the tent-dress quivering, a fleshquake in paroxysm.

Jellico shook his head. “Not mine, Ducky, old girl. I’ll get an image of her, then you take her back. You’ve got plenty of room in that place of yours. Put it in an empty room and feed it something. The stasis-tank is no place for that. Doesn’t need freezing. Needs tending. Better with you.”

“How trusting,” she simpered.

“Oh, you won’t sell her, Ducky. If she can’t talk, she can’t speak a consent waiver, and you know I’ll be comin’ down to look her over again next time I’m in Portside to check transience permits. And after I’ve had a chance to ask around. If this isn’t the damnedest thing ...”

He went on looking at the girl as he set up the imager, she returning his gaze with her head turned sideways so that he saw only one eye, an eye in which no intelligence showed at all. And yet, when he had finished recording the creature’s image and Ducky held out her hand, the girl took it and smiled, turning the head upward and to one side again to cast a sidelong look.

Jelly shivered. There had been something strangely familiar about that look. Almost as strange as where the girl could have come from. Not through the swamp, that was certain. Not in an aircar. Not on a ship. Not from the hotel. And what did that leave?

“Damn all,” whispered Jelly to himself, watching old Ducky loading the girl back into her three-wheeled runner before turning it back toward Portside. “Damn all.”

The morning after the bon Damfels’ Hunt, Marjorie was up before light. She had slept little, and that little restlessly. When she slept she had dreamed of Hippae, and her dreams had been threatening. She had risen in the night to walk about the winter quarters, going into the children’s rooms, listening to them breathe. Anthony had been making little groaning sounds and shivering in his sleep, almost as El Dia Octavo had done that day she had seen the things on the ridge. Marjorie sat on the edge of his bed and ran her hands over his shoulders and chest, stroking him as she would have one of the horses, pulling the anxiety out of him until he lay motionless beneath her fingers. Dear Tony, little Tony, firstborn and much beloved. So like her that she could read every flicker of his expression, every line of his body. She yearned over him, wishing the disappointments away. They would come anyway. He was so like her that they must come, as day follows night.

In the neighboring room Stella slept soundly, rosy in the dim light, lips slightly parted. Each day made her resemblance to Rigo more pronounced—his passion, his pride, and a stunningly feminine version of his handsome face. Marjorie stood over her, not touching her. If Stella were touched she would come awake, full of questions, full of demands—questions Marjorie couldn’t answer, demands she couldn’t meet. Like Rigo, Marjorie thought to herself, just like Rigo. And like Rigo, Stella demanded that the world understand her even while she overwhelmed any effort to be understood.

“I tried to know Rigo,” Marjorie whispered to herself, an old litany, almost an apology, an excuse, something she said to herself again and again. Something she used to say to Father Sandoval before he had tried to mend what seemingly could not be mended by giving her penance after penance of obedience and submission until she had felt so trapped between them, she could not ask for forgiveness anymore. What she had told Father Sandoval was true, so far as it went. When she and Rigo had been newly married she had sometimes waited until Rigo was very tired or even asleep and then curled against him, pressed herself tight, wanting to feel him in his skin, feel all the muscles running there softly, getting to know the body of him as she did his face. He always responded, fiercely, passionately, hammering at her, until she was lost. There was no separate place she could stand to feel what he was like. If she stood apart from him, he accused her of being remote. If she came close, he swallowed her up.

“I tried to tell him,” she whispered, still looking at the sleeping Stella. “I tried to tell him, just the way I’ve tried to tell you.” And that, too, was true. She had tried to say, “Rigo, just hold me, gently. Let me learn the rhythm of your blood and your breath.” Or, “Stella, be still a moment. Just talk to me. Let us know one another.”

Marjorie remembered lying in the stable with her belly pressed close to a foal, quiet on the straw, the mare whickering above, soft nose pressing down on the foal and on the child-Marjorie both, until all three were same-scented, hay-scented, straw-smelling. Marjorie had felt the blood running in the foal’s veins, felt the smooth pull of the muscles over the bone. Then later, when the foal grew and they raced together, she understood what it was that moved and the spirit that moved it. She had wanted to learn Rigo like that, but he wouldn’t let her.

Stella was the same. Always passionate. Always in the depths or on the heights. Always give me, give me, give me, and never anything warm or gentle in return, never any simple affection. No hug. No little joke for the two of them to share. No peace. Not that Stella shared much with her father, either. No. If she was capable of affection at all, she had saved it all for her friend back home, the beatific Elaine.

Marjorie felt her own heart thudding away under her hand and smiled ruefully at herself. She was too old to feel this jealousy. It was not her heart that yearned toward Stella, it was her stomach, clenching now with an agony of helpless love which she could not show. Showing love to Stella was like showing meat to a half-wild dog. Stella would seize it and swallow it and gnaw its bones. Showing love to Stella was opening oneself up for attack.

“You don’t really love me. When I was little, you promised me a trip to Westriding, and I didn’t get to go!” This, the then sixteen-year-old Stella, rehearsing a grievance at least eight years old.

“You’ve been told a thousand times that Grandpa was ill. Stella. He was too sick to have company. He died not long after that.”

“You promised and then you decided all by yourself we shouldn’t go. You’re always saying we’ll do things and then we don’t. Now you’re dragging me off to this awful place, making me leave my friends without even asking me if I want to go! Why aren’t we more like a family? I wish I were Elaine’s sister. The Brouers don’t act like you do.”

“If she mentions the Brouers to me again,” Marjorie had said to Rigo, “I will strangle her.”

“They’re friends,” Rigo had replied, giving her a curious look. “They’re best friends. Why should you resent that?”

“I don’t resent that. I resent the Brouers being held up to me as a standard of perfection.”

“All kids think some other family is perfect,” he said.

“I never did.”

“Yes, but,” he had said, “you’re strange.”

“I’m strange,” she told herself now, looking down at the sleeping girl, wondering what it was about the Brouers that had evoked Stella’s admiration. What quality did the Brouer family have that attracted her? Family? What did Stella mean by family?

“I wish the Brouers were my family,” Stella had said dozens of times, stubbornly, without explaining, knowing she was hurting, wanting to hurt. “They do things together. I wish I had a family like that.”

“Well, we’ll have a chance to be a family on Grass, Stella. There won’t be anyone else around.” Not that Stella ever wanted to do what anyone else did. Not that isolation would change her.

Stella had clenched her jaw at that, threatening angrily not to come to Grass at all. For weeks before they left, Marjorie had been sure that Stella would approach her with the suggestion that she stay behind with the Brouers.

“Mother, I want to stay here in Sanctity with the Brouers. They’d like to have me stay.”

What would she have said? “Stella, that’s fine. I don’t want to go either. Neither does your father. I don’t feel right about leaving my poor people in St. Magdalen’s. Rigo doesn’t want to leave his clubs and his committees and his nights on the town with Eugenie on his arm. We’re going because we think we must, to save all of mankind. But there’s no real reason you have to go. Stay here and die of the plague, Stella. You and Elaine and her whole perfect family. I don’t care anymore.”

And she had repented her anger, confessed her anger—though not mentioning several other sins which weighed even more heavily—received absolution for it, only to feel it again. And now they were on Grass, and Marjorie still felt anger, still repented, still confessed, still wondered what she would do with Stella, who was as sulky and rebellious and unloving here as she had been at home.

“Why, Father?” she had asked. “Why is she like this? Why is Rigo like this?”

“You know why anyone ... The church teaches ...” His gentle old voice had begun one of its learned and inflexible perorations.

She had interrupted. “Sin. Even original sin. I know what it teaches. It teaches that a sin committed by people thousands of years ago descends to me. Through my cells. Through my DNA. Mixed in there, somehow, along with my heart and my lungs and my brain, and infected my daughter....”

He had cocked his head. “Marjorie, I’ve never thought that original sin is conveyed in the cells.”

“Where else does it come from? What else is there? The soul comes with the body, doesn’t it, Father? Sin comes with sex, doesn’t it? It isn’t just our souls in bed with each other, is it?”

Sanctity would say yes, the souls were in bed together. Sanctity said marriages lasted forever. Especially in heaven. Which wasn’t what Old Catholics believed. Thank God. When she was dead at least that would be over.

She had wept then, feeling it was all her own fault, somehow. Father Sandoval had patted her shoulder, unable to offer comfort, unable or unwilling to make her feel less guilty. Nothing had done that, not even all the work at St. Magdalen’s, which was supposed to be an expiation.

Marjorie left Stella’s room, shutting the door quietly behind her, her mind moving in old, familiar patterns. Perhaps when Stella was older, middle-aged, they could be friends. Stella would marry someone. She would separate herself from them, by distance, by time. She would have children. In time, they might be friends.

The thought made her pale, gasp, made her bend over the sick pain that struck her. There might be no time for any of that. All the sulkiness, the lack of joy—there might be no time for it to work itself out. There might not be time for Stella. There was no proof they were protected here on Grass. There was only the assumption, the hope. And the children couldn’t share even that. They couldn’t be told the real reasons for the assignment. Too dangerous. So said Sanctity, and Marjorie concurred. Tony might forget himself. Stella might rebel. Either might say something undiplomatic to one of the bons and the fate of humanity could hang upon that saying. Assuming. Assuming there was any truth to the rumor. Assuming there was really no plague here on Grass.

She sat frozen then, waiting for the morning to come, using the rote of prayer to calm herself.

As soon as light showed clearly above the grasses, Marjorie went down to the cavern where the horses were stabled. She needed to feel them, smell them, be assured of their familiar reality, their uncomplicated loyalty and affection. They did not throw her love back in her face; they repaid a little attention a thousand times over. She went from stall to stall, petting and stroking, handing out bits of sweet cookie she had saved for them, stopping at last at Quixote’s stall to peer in at him where he pawed the earth again and again, a nervous, begging gesture. She put her arms around him.

“My Quixote,” she told him. “Good horse. Wonderful horse.” She laid her face against his ebony muzzle, feeling the warm breath in her ear, for that instant forgetting Stella’s sulks and Rigo’s unfaithfulness and the Hippae and the hounds and the monsters that haunted her, the one called fox here, the one called plague elsewhere. “Let’s go out, out into the meadows.”

She did not bother to saddle him. This morning was not a time for schooling. This morning there would be only herself and Quixote, a togetherness more intimate than any other she knew. She wanted nothing between herself and his skin. She wanted to be able to reassure him with every muscle she had and take back his strength into herself. She lay along his neck as they went down from the cavern, along the curving way which led to the arena. The path went down along a winding defile, then up, topping a rise.

As they approached the rise, the horse’s skin quivered. He shook, silently, without even a whicker of protest, as though something deep within his great human-friend heart told him his only chance for continued life lay in making no sound. Only the breath came out of him like life leaving him Marjorie felt it, as she always felt the least movement he made She slid from his back in one fluid motion. Without going to the top of the rise, she knew what she would see there. Her stomach was in her throat, full of hot bile. She trembled as though half frozen. Still, one had to see. One had to know.

She pulled on the stallion’s shoulder. He had been trained to lie down, and he did it now, almost gladly, as though his legs would barely hold him. She stroked him once, for his comfort—or her own—then crawled on shivering arms and legs away, up the rise a little to one side of the path so that she could look down through the fringing grasses without being seen.

And they were there. Three of them, just as there had been three horses when she and Tony and Rigo had ridden here. Three Hippae doing dressage exercises, walking, trotting, cantering, changing feet to cross the arena on long diagonals. They did everything she had done with Octavo, did it casually, offhandedly, with a practiced ease, concluding with the three animals side by side, facing away from her, the saber tips of their neck barbs pointing at her like a glittering abatis, as threatening as drawn blades. Then they turned and looked up at the place where she was hidden, their dark eyes gleaming red in the light of dawn, soundless.

Amusement, she thought at first. A kind of mime. These Hippae had seen the humans and their horses and were amused at what these little off-world beasts had been doing with their human riders. She held the thought only fleetingly, only for a moment, trying to cling to it but unable to do so. They knew she was there. They knew she was watching. Perhaps they had timed this little exercise to coincide with her arrival....

It wasn’t amusement. Nothing in that red-eyed glare was amused. She did not stay to confront what it really was. She fled from the ridge as one in fear for her life, down to where the stallion lay as though he had been felled, urged him onto his trembling legs, and then half lay on his back as they first staggered then ran away, back to Opal Hill, back to human country, to add another horror to those she already knew.

What she had seen in those red eyes was mockery—mockery and something deeper. Something abiding and unforgiving. Malice.

James Jellico took himself home for lunch, as he often did. knowing his wife, Jandra, would be interested in the morning’s happenings. Jellico’s wife had no legs, and though she walked well enough on the elegant artificials he had obtained for her (a little bribery at the port, a little looking the other way when he was or, customs duty), she said it pained her to use the legs. There were implants one could use for the pain, but Jandra. who often said she didn’t like people fooling about with her head, preferred for the most part to wheel about the house in the half-person she had used since she was a child. About the house and the poultry yard as well. A third of the Jellys’ income came from homely Terran geese and ducks along with Semling szizz birds and fat, delicious wingless things from the planet Shame which Jandra called puggys.

He found his wife by the goose pen feeding greens to the geese, they gabbling and snatching grass fronds from one another and she humming to herself, as she did when content. “Ho, Jelly,” she greeted him “I’ve about decided to kill that one for dinner. She’s so smug it serves her right.”

The indicated goose succeeded in dragging the disputed shred of greens out of another’s beak and swallowing it, at the same time tipping her head to one side to get a good one-eyed goose-look at jelly. There was something in that cold, single-eyed stare, something in the line of beak and neck that shook him with a feeling which was at first deja vu and then horrified recognition.

“That girl,” he blurted. “She looked at me like that!” Then he had to tell her all about the girl and Ducky Johns and how strange it all was. “And it looked at me like that, tipped its head like that, as though it could see me better out of one eye than out of both. Like an animal.”

“Bird,” corrected Jandra.

“Bird or animal,” said Jelly patiently. “Any of ‘em that don’t have what-you-call-it. Binocular vision. They’ll do that. Tip their heads to see you better.”

“Why do you say ‘it’ when it was a girl, Jelly. Why don’t you say ‘she’?”

“Habit, I guess. With those from Portside, he’s and she’s would be wrong as often as they’re right. They have he’s that look like she’s, and she’s that look like he’s, and it’s that look like either. I just say ‘it’ about them all.” He took the image file out of his pocket and put it in the imager, to show her.

Jandra shook her head, amazed at the ways of the world. She never tired hearing about them. Even simple things amazed her, though she was never shocked at the horrid ones. “I’ll have to go down to Ducky’s and see to this,” she announced in a tone which allowed no contradiction. She peered at the image, looking at the creature’s eyes. “It isn’t right something human and helpless should be left down there. Was there something wrong with the girl’s eyes?”

“Nothing I could see. Nothing wrong with any of it—her. Pretty, built nice, smooth hair and all. Just the face. Well, look at it.”

“What do you mean about her face, Jelly?”

“Empty,” he said after staring and thinking about it for a moment. “It looks just empty, that’s all.”

7

Some distance east of Opal Hill was a hidden cavern of the Hippae, one of many which could have been found on Grass if anyone had dared to look. Set deep into the hillside, its narrow openings shaded by great swaths of vermilion grasses which fell across the slender doors in gently moving curtains, the cavern was undergoing a periodic refurbishing. Arriving and departing at the northernmost slit were the creatures responsible, molelike migerers, diggers par excellence, scuttling now through the vermilion and the fuschia, out into the shorter. violet-colored grasses, their furry thigh-pockets full of loose earth recently scraped from the floor of the Hippae hall.

Inside that hall a shadowed emptiness was supported by pillars of rubbly stone, stones uncovered when the caverns were dug, each stone mortared into place with the adhesive which resulted from mixing migerer shit and earth. Marvelous creatures, the migerers—builders, almost engineers, certainly cave makers of no small talent who made similar, though smaller, caverns for themselves, each cavern linked to others by miles of winding tunnels.

In this great hall they blinked their squinty eyes, deep-pocketed in indigo fur, and chirped to one another in flute tones as they plodded across the cavern, scraping the high places into the low with urgent flat-edged claws, stamping the loose dirt down with the hard pads on their industrious hind feet.

A Hippae came into the cavern, striding on great tripartite hooves across the smoothed floor, quartering the cave again and again, nodding approval with his monstrous head, the teeth showing slightly where the lips drew back in a half snarl, the razorlike neck barbs making a dissonant clash as the beast tossed its head and bellowed at the ceiling.

The migerers affected not to notice, perhaps really did not notice. Nothing changed in their behavior. They still darted about under the very hooves of the prancing monster, scraping, packing, filling their furry pockets, and darting away into the grasses to dispose of this evidence of industry. Only when they were finished, when the floor was as smooth as their instinctive skills could make it, did they desist and fall to grooming round bellies and small tough feet, combing whiskers with curved ivory claws, blinking in the half light of the entrance slits. Then a whistle, a plaint on the wind as from some bird calling in mild distress, and they were gone, away, vanished in the grasses as though they had never been. In the cavern behind them the Hippae continued its slow parade, bellowing now and again to make the cavern ring, alone in majesty surveying and approving the work which had been done.

A second monster called in response, entering the cavern to begin a quartering of its own. Then came a third and fourth, then many, prancing in intricate patterns upon the cavern floor, interweaving and paralleling, twos and fours and sixes becoming twelves and eighteens, the files of them turning and braiding in complicated design, hooves falling as precisely as artisans’ hammers into the tracks themselves had made.

Not far off, in Opal Hill village. Dulia Mechanic turned restlessly on her bed, half wakened by the subterranean thunder. “What, what’s that?” she murmured, still mostly asleep.

“The Hippae are dancing,” said her young husband Sebastian Mechanic, wide awake, for he had been listening to the rhythmic surge for an hour or more while she had breathed quietly beside him. “Dancing,” he reasserted, not sure whether he believed it or not. Besides, he had something else on his mind.

“How do you know? Everyone says that, but how do you know?” she whined, still not awake.

“Someone saw them, I suppose,” he said, wondering for the first time how that particular someone had seen what he claimed he had seen. Sebastian himself would rather face certain death than sneak around in the tall grasses, spying on Hippae. Without identifying the source, he murmured, “Someone, a long time ago,” and went back to thinking what he had been thinking of for a long time now, about those at Opal Hill.

Out in the night, in the cavern where all the thunder came from, the Hippae moved their anfractuous quadrille along to its culmination.

Suddenly, without any sense of climax, it was over. The Hippae left the cavern as they had entered it, by ones and twos, leaving a pattern intricate and detailed as a tapestry trampled deep into the floor behind them. To them who made it, it had meaning, a meaning otherwise expressible only by a long sequence of twitches of hide and particular blinks of eye. The ancient Hippae language of gesture and quiver and almost undetectable movement was useless for this particular purpose, but the Hippae know another language as well. In the other language, learned long ago from another race, this design stamped deep into their cavern floor was their way of writing—and thereby giving notice of—a certain inexorable word.

In the stables at Opal Hill, the horses were awake, listening as they had listened many nights, most nights, since they had come to Grass. Millefiori whickered to the stallion, Don Quixote, and he in turn to Irish Lass next to him, the whispering rattle running down the length of the stalls and then back again, like a roll-taking. “Here,” each seemed to say. “Still here. Nothing yet.”

But there was something. Something they had begun to be more than remotely aware of. One of those shadows one shies at, one of those bridges one will not walk over. A thing like that, full of menace, which the riders usually do not understand. Most of them. The woman, she understood. She always understood. If there was a thing like that, she never insisted. Never. And in return, each gave her total trust. When she rode them at the high fence, the fence one could not see over, with no knowledge at all of what might be beyond, each one trusted that she would bring them safely down on the other side. They knew it as trust. She would not betray them, not one of them.

Not that they thought in words. They did not have the words. It was more an understanding of the way things were. The rewards, the threats. That thing out there on the ridge that day. This noise, moving in the night, this noise that tried to crawl into ears, into heads, to take over everything. These were threats.

But there was something else abroad in the night, and that ... that was something they could not identify as either a threat or a reward. It fought against the horrid noise; it kept the insinuating thoughts away. And yet, it came no closer, it offered no hay, it stroked no necks. It was simply there, like a breathing wall, a thing they did not understand at all.

So the whicker ran, left to right, then back again. “Here. Still here. All right. Still alive. Nothing...”

“Nothing yet.”

Jandra Jellico did as she had threatened and went over to Portside in her half-person to visit with Ducky Johns. She’d met Ducky before and quite liked her, despite the business she was in, which Jandra didn’t altogether approve of. Pleasure was pleasure, had been for ages, and people would seek it out. Some of the ways they sought it, though, in Jandra’s opinion, were not quite tasteful.

Still, she made nothing of that as she sat in Ducky Johns’ private parlor, sipping tea and staring at the girl who sat on the carpet, humming to herself. Itself. Whatever. When the girl got an itch, up came the skirt and the hand scratched, wherever the itch might be. No inhibitions at all, no more than a cat, licking itself where it needed it.

“My, my,” Jandra said. “You can’t keep her here, Ducky.”

“Well, and who wanted to?” Ducky sulked, waving her tiny hands in circles to express innocent annoyance. “It was Jelly, your own Jelly, made me bring her back here. She’s useless to me, dear. Can’t sell her. Who’d want her? Needs to be trained before she’s any use at all.”

“Does she potty?” Jandra wanted to know.

“Except for eating, that’s all she does, but potty she does. Like my wallo-pup, whines when she needs to go.”

“Have you tried—“

“Haven’t tried anything at all. No time. This business keeps me at it, day on day. No time for fooling with that!” The little hands waved again, then folded themselves into an obdurate lump buried deep in Ducky’s lap. “Tell me you’ll take her away, Jandra. Do say so. Anyone else, your Jelly would argue.”

“Oh, I’ll take her,” Jandra agreed. “Or send for her, rather. But it’s, the strangest thing. The very strangest thing. Where’d she come from?”

“Wouldn’t we like to know that, my dear? Wouldn’t we all?”

Jandra sent for the girl that afternoon. Thereafter she spent a good part of several days teaching the girl to keep her skirts down and to eat with her fingers instead of burying her face in the food and to go potty by herself without whining. When she’d done that much, she called Kinny Few on the tell-me and invited her over, and the two of them sipped tea and nibbled at Kinny’s seed cakes while they watched the girl playing with a ball on the floor.

“I thought you might know who she is,” Jandra said. “Or who she was. Surely she hasn’t always been like this.”

Kinny thought hard about it. There was something in the tilt of the girl’s head that reminded her of someone, but she couldn’t say who. No one in Commons, that was certain. “She must have come in on a ship,” she offered, having already been told that this was impossible. “Must have.”

“I keep thinking so, too,” Jandra agreed. “But Jelly says no. She was just there, on Ducky Johns’ back porch, and that’s it. Like she hatched there. No more memory than an egg.”

“What are you going to do with her?” Kinny wanted to know.

Jandra shrugged. “See if I can find her a home, I guess. Pretty soon, too. Jelly’s losing patience, having her around.”

Actually, it was not Jelly’s patience he was in danger of losing. Devotedly fond of Jandra though he was (and they two with an understanding about fidelity), the proximity of the girl’s body, lovely and uninhibited as some half-tamed beast, was leading him to worrisome desires.

“A week,” he told Jandra. “I’ll give you a week.” He thought he’d probably be able to control himself at least that long.

Rigo was determined to have a diplomatic reception. He was much encouraged in this by Eugenie, who was tired of the company of Opal Hill but who had no status which would allow her to go elsewhere. She could not even go to the Hunts. After the bon Damfels’ Hunt the Yrariers had observed three other Hunts; twice as a family, once with Fathers Sandoval and James along as guests. It was quite enough, as Tony said, to know that they were all alike. They had declined to observe more, and by doing so had confirmed the bons’ prejudice about them. By that time, however, Rigo had other things to think about. Some of the furnishings for the summer quarters had arrived along with Roald Few. who promised that everything would be completed in two weeks’ time.

“Draperies, rugs, furnishings, image projectors for the walls—everything. Everything elegant and of the highest quality.”

“Rigo wants to have a reception for the bons,” Marjorie told him.

“Hmmph,” snorted Persun Pollut.

“Now, Pers,” chided Roald. “The ambassador doesn’t know. During Hunt season, Lady Westriding, he’s unlikely to get anybody but second leaders and lower. People who don’t ride. Those who ride wouldn’t even consider coming, don’t you see?”

“We’d get Eric bon Haunser but not the Obermun?”

“That’s right. You’d get nobody at all from the bon Damfels’ except Figor. Obermum won’t go anywhere Obermun doesn’t. That isn’t done. All the rest of the family rides, what’s left of it.”

Marjorie stared at him, evaluating the open countenance before her. The man seemed without guile, and thus far he had treated her fairly. “I need information,” she said at last in a very quiet voice.

Roald dropped his own voice to a confidential level. “I am at your service, Lady Westriding.”

“The bon Damfels were in mourning when we were there.”

“Yes.”

“They’d lost a daughter. In a hunting accident. Eric bon Haunser has lost his legs, also, so he said, in a hunting accident. When I looked about me after that first Hunt I saw more biotic appendages than I would have seen in a year at home. I would like to understand these accidents.”

“Ah. Well.” Roald shuffled his feet.

“There are various kinds of accidents,” offered Persun in his soft, dry lecturer’s voice. “There is falling off. There is getting oneself skewered. There is offending a hound. And there is vanishment.” He said this last almost in a whisper, and Roald nodded agreement

“So we understand, Lady. The servants at the estancias are kinfolk of ours. They see things; they overhear things; they tell us. We put two and two together to make forty-four, when we must.”

“Falling off?” she asked. Riders fell off all the time. Rarely was it fatal.

“Followed by trampling. If a rider falls off, he or she is trampled into the grasses. Until nothing is left, you understand.”

Marjorie nodded, feeling sick.

“If you’ve seen a Hunt, you’ve seen how a rider might get skewered. It doesn’t happen often, surprisingly. The young ones ride simulators for days at a time, learning to stay out of the way of those horny blades. But still, once in a while someone faints or a mount stops too suddenly and the rider falls forward.”

Marjorie wiped her mouth, tasting bile.

“Offending a hound usually results in the hunter having an arm or leg or hand or foot or two bitten off when he dismounts at the end of the Hunt.”

“Offending...?”

“Don’t ask us, Lady,” replied Persun. “There aren’t any hounds in Commons. They can’t get into town, and nobody with any sense goes far out into the grasses where hounds’re likely to be. Close to the villages is fine, no hounds there, but farther out... those that go don’t come back. We really don’t know what would offend a hound. So far as we can tell, the bons don’t know either”

“And vanishment?”

“Just that. Somebody starts out on the Hunt and doesn’t come back. The mount disappears, too. Usually a young rider it happens to. Girls, usually. Rarely, a boy.”

“Someone at the rear of the Hunt,” she said in sudden comprehension. “So the others wouldn’t notice?”

“Yes.”

“What happened to the bon Damfels girl?”

“Same as happened to Janetta bon Maukerden last fall, her that Shevlok bon Damfels was so set on. Vanishment. The way I know is, my brother Canon is married to a woman who’s got a cousin, Salla, and she’s a maid at the bon Damfels. Practically raised Dimity from a baby. Last fall Dimity thought a hound was watching her, and she told Rowena. Next time out, same thing. Rowena and Stavenger had a set-to, and Rowena kept the girl from riding any more Hunts that season. This spring, Stavenger took a hand and made the girl go out again First spring Hunt! Poof, she was gone”

“Dimity, did you say? How old was she?”

“Diamante bon Damfels. Stavenger and Rowena’s youngest. Somewhere around seventeen in Terran terms.”

“The bon Damfels had five children?”

“They had seven, Lady. They lost two others when they were young riders. Trampled, I think. I’m sorry not to remember their names. Now it’s just Amethyste and Emeraude and Shevlok and Sylvan.”

“Sylvan,” she said, remembering him from the first Hunt- He had not been at any of the others they had witnessed. “But he wouldn’t come to a reception, because he rides.”

Roald nodded.

“There is the lapse.” murmured Persun.

“I’d forgotten the lapse,” said Roald in a tone of annoyance. “Here I am almost ten Grassian years old and I’d forgotten the lapse.”

“Lapse?”

“Every spring there’s a time when the mounts and the hounds disappear. Far’s I know, no one knows where they go. Mating time, perhaps? Or whelping time. Or something of the kind. Sometimes people hear a great lot of baying and howling going on. Lasts a week or a little more.”

“When?” she asked.

“When it happens. No exact time. Sometimes a little earlier in the year, sometimes a little later. But always in spring.”

“But doesn’t everyone on the planet know when it happens?”

“Everyone out here in the grasses, Lady.Tssf,in Commons we’d pay it no attention. Out here, though—yes. Everyone knows. If no way else, they go out to Hunt that day and no mounts or hounds show up. They know.”

“So, if we sent an invitation, saying—oh, ‘On the third night of the lapse you are invited to ...’ “

“It’s never been done,” muttered Persun

“So, who’s to say it shouldn’t be?” Roald responded. “If your good husband is determined, my Lady, then it would be a thing to try. Otherwise, wait until summer when the hunting stops. Then you can have your reception among the summer balls.”

Rigo did not want to wait until summer. “That’s over a year and a half. Terran,” he said. “We have to start getting some information from the bons, Marjorie. There’s no time to wait. We’ll get everything ready and send the invitation as soon as the place looks decent. Undoubtedly I’ll hear from bon Haunser if we’ve overstepped some barrier of local custom “

The invitations were dispatched by tell-me to all estancias. Surprisingly, at least to Marjorie, acceptances were prompt and fairly widespread. She got a bad case of stage fright and went up into the summer rooms to reassure herself.

The chill rooms had been transformed. Though still cool, they glowed with color. From the greenhouse in the village—which had been half ruined until Rigo had ordered it rebuilt—had come great bouquets of off-world bloom. Terran lilies and Semling semeles combined with plumes of silver grass to make huge, fragrant mounds reflected endlessly in paired mirrors. Marjorie had provided holo-records of valued artworks the Yrariers had left behind, and duplicates of the originals glowed at her from the walls and from pedestals scattered among the costly furniture.

“This is a beautiful table,” she said, running her fingers across satiny blue-shadowed wood.

“Thank you, Lady,” said Persun. “My father made it.”

“Where does he get wood, here on Grass?”

“Imports much of it. Much though they talk of tradition, now and then the bons want something imported and new. Things he makes for us, though, he cuts from the swamp forest. There are some lovely trees in there. There’s this wood, the one we call blue treasure, and there’s one that’s pale green in one light and a deep violet in another. Glume wood, that is.”

“I didn’t know anyone could get into the swamp forest.”

“Oh, we don’t go in. There’s a hundred miles of forest edge, and these are trees that grow at the edge. Even so, we don’t take many. I’m using some native woods in the panels for your room.” He had spent hours designing the panels for her study. He longed for her to praise them.

“Are you, now,” she mused. Outside, on the balustraded terrace, a slender figure passed restlessly to and fro: Eugenie. Forlorn. Childlike. Head drooping like a wilted flower. Marjorie fingered her prayer book and reminded herself of certain virtues. “Will you excuse me a moment, Persun?”

He bowed wordlessly, and she left him there while he tried to give the appearance of not staring after her.

“Eugenie,” Marjorie greeted her with self-conscious kindness. “I’ve seen very little of you since we arrived.” She had seen nothing of her at home, but this was a different world and all comparisons were odious.

The other woman flushed. Rigo had told her to stay away from the big house. “I shouldn’t be here now. I thought I might catch a ride into town with the merchant, that’s all.”

“Something you need?”

Eugenie flushed again. “No. Nothing I need. I just thought I’d spend a day looking at the shops. Maybe stay at the Port Hotel overnight and see the entertainment....”

“It must be dull for you here.”

“It is bloody dull,” the woman blurted, speaking before she thought. She flushed a deep, embarrassed red, and her eyes filled with tears.

This time Marjorie flushed. “That was tactless of me, Eugenie. Listen. I know you’re not one for horses or things like that, but why don’t you see if they have some kind of pets for sale in Commons?”

“Pets?”

“I don’t know what they might have. Dogs, maybe. Or kittens. Birds of some kind, or something exotic. Little animals are very amusing. They take up a lot of time.”

“Oh, I have so much of that,” Eugenie cried, almost angrily. “Rigo ... well, Rigo’s been very busy.” Marjorie looked out across the balustrade of the terrace toward the multiple horizons of that part of the grass garden called the Fading Vista. Each ridge partly hid the one behind, each one was a paler color than the one before, until the horizon hill faded into the sky almost indistinguishably. She was amused to make a mental connection: In such fashion had her original animosity toward Eugenie faded, retreated, become merely a hazy tolerance almost indistinguishable from tentative acceptance, “We’ll be having our first official party soon. Perhaps you’ll meet some people....” her voice faded away like the horizon line before her. Who could Eugenie meet, after all? The children despised her. The servants thought her a joke. No one among the bons would associate with her. Or would they?

“There are particular people I want you to meet,” Marjorie said thoughtfully. “A man named Eric bon Haunser. And Shevlok, the eldest son of the bon Damfels.”

“Trying to get rid of me?” Eugenie said with childish spite. “Introducing me to men.”

“Trying to assure that you have some company,” Marjorie said mildly. “Trying to assure that we all do. If some of the men find you fascinating, you and Stella and maybe me—though that wouldn’t do to admit officially—perhaps they’ll frequent the place. We’re here to find something out, after all.”

“Don’t talk as though I knew anything about it. I don’t. Rigo didn’t tell me anything!”

“Oh, my dear,” said Marjorie, more shocked than she could admit even to herself. “But he must have! Why would you have come, otherwise?”

To which Eugenie merely stared at her, eyes wide and wondering. This woman married to Roderigo Yrarier, this woman, his wife, mother of his children, this woman ... She didn’t know? “Because I love him,” she said at last, almost whispering “I thought you knew.”

“Well so do I,” Marjorie replied shortly, believing that she did. “But even so, I would not have come to Grass had I not known why.”

Though Eugenie had not particularly appreciated Marjorie’s advice about pets, she had heard it. Normally she would have ignored it as a matter of principle because it came from Rigo’s wife and Rigo would be unlikely to appreciate his mistress taking his wife’s advice about anything. As it was, however, Eugenie could not afford to ignore anything that would alleviate the blanketing boredom which afflicted her. At home there had been restaurants and parties and amusing places to go to. There had been shopping and clothes and hairdressers to talk with. There had been gossip and laughter. And running through all that, like a thread of gold through the floating chiffon of her life, there had been Rigo. Not that he’d been around a lot. He hadn’t been. But for a long time he had been there, in the background, providing whatever she needed, making her feel treasured and important. Men such as he, Rigo had explained, with all his important work on committees and clubs and such, needed women such as she as a necessary relief from the tiresome but urgent works they were called upon to do. This made women such as she especially important. Eugenie thought of this often. Men had told her many sweet things about herself, but never before that she was important. It was the nicest compliment she had ever received.

And so she was here, and so was Rigo, and for all they saw of one another she might as well have stayed on Terra with some other protector—which she had, quite truthfully, considered. Had there been another man immediately available, she would probably have chosen to stay. Weighing the relative inconvenience, however, of finding a new man or submitting to packing and coldsleep, she had decided that finding the new man would be more trouble. Not so much finding him but learning about him. His little ways. His favorite foods and smells and colors and little magics in bed. All men believed they had their own magics in bed.

And then, too, she did love Rigo, When she had said that to Marjorie, it hadn’t been a lie. Of all the men she had loved, she probably loved Rigo most. He had been most fun.

But Rigo was hardly fun at all in this place. When love wasn’t fun, it was just boring and dull and achy. People had to have things that were fun for them. What Marjorie had said about pets was probably the best advice anyone was going to give her, even though it had come from Rigo’s wife.

Eugenie begged a ride from Roald Few to Commoner Town, enjoying the trip because of all the sweet things he and the other men said to her. It was Roald himself who told her to look up Jandra Jellico. “If you’re looking for something little and petful and fun to have, Jandra may have it or she’ll know who has. She’s got most everything in fur and feathers and pretty skin, Jandra does.” He warned her, too, that Jandra would be in a half-person, as though Eugenie was the kind of person to make unkind remarks or stare.

And Jandra, after Eugenie had been with her for half an hour, knew everything about her just as Roald had. Knew and appreciated and felt a bit sorry for, while at the same time blessing her guardian spirits that Eugenie had come along just now to solve her dilemma. “I’ve got just the thing for you,” she said. “Something I got from Ducky Johns, down in Portside. Wasn’t right Ducky should keep it down there among the sensees and the profligates, so I had her bring it here to me. I keep it in the spare bedroom.”

She brought it out, the slender prettiness of it, the long-haired sweetness of it, the sidling, goose-eyed gaze of it, all done up in girl skin and girl smell and dressed in a pretty smock which it had learned to keep down. “I call her the Goosegirl,” said Jandra, not saying why. Eugenie wasn’t an awl-eyed one like Jandra’s own dear Jelly, to see what others hadn’t noticed, that almost mindless, birdish stare turned on each and every one as though to ask the world what there was to be afraid of out there, knowing already in its little bird mind that there was something.

“It’s a girl,” said Eugenie, uncomplaining, but definite. “Not an animal.”

“Well there’s one opinion and another about that,” said Jandra, squeezing the end of her nose between her fingers as she did sometimes while puzzling out the ethics of a situation. “It doesn’t know its name. It can’t dress itself. It is potty trained, for which I’m more than grateful, so there’s one small thing making it better than a puppy, which I haven’t one of nor nobody else I know, so no matter. It’ll sit brushing at its hair for the better part of a day, and it has a good appetite for most anything you’d eat yourself and I’ve halfway taught it to eat with a spoon. Sometimes it makes a noise as if it was about to say something. Not often, mind you, and it surprises itself when it does.”

“You should say ‘she,’” corrected Eugenie. The pretty thing was as female as she herself was, and very much of her own size.

“Well, there’s one opinion and another about that, too. Still, I’d be inclined to agree with you, and I call her ‘she’ to myself, don’t you know. It’s a playful bit of a thing, too. Likes to roll a ball back and forth or play with a bobble on the end of a string.”

“Like a kitten,” purred Eugenie. “Do you suppose they’ll let me keep her?”

Well, and if they wouldn’t, it would be their problem, Jandra thought, not her own, which the Goosegirl had been up until now, her or it of the pretty hair and lovely little body and sweet face without two notions to jostle one another in her head. Last evening she’d seen Jelly looking at the girl in that certain way, and no time would be too quick to get rid of her, ethics or no. Still, if Eugenie had been someone else—Marjorie Westriding, say—Jandra would have felt uncomfortable giving her the Goosegirl as a pet. Someone like the Lady Westriding—Jandra had heard all about her from Roald Few, as had every other person with normal hearing—would dig and dig, puzzle and puzzle, making the poor creature’s life a misery. And one couldn’t give it to some man to use, though one would, rather than have Jelly doing the using.

Eugenie, though. Well, she wasn’t a debauchee and she didn’t look the type to go seeking causes or laying blame. She would not abuse the creature, nor wonder where the girl had come from or what brought her to Portside to be found under Ducky Johns’ clothesline. She would see only a girl-sized walking doll, something with pretty hair to arrange, something to clothe and play with. As for Jandra Jellico, it looked the best thing she would be able to do for the Goosegirl and far better than she had recently feared.

One of Roald Few’s workmen took Eugenie and her new pet back to Opal Hill, dropping them behind the Fading Vista from which Eugenie was able to reach her own little house without being observed. Eugenie already had a dozen plans for Goosegirl. One of them had to do with teaching her to dance, but first and second on the list had to do with the sewing of astonishing gowns and the selection of a new and utterly elegant name.

Marjorie tapped at the door of Rigo’s study and entered at the sound of his voice. “Am I too early?”

“Come on in,” he said, his voice fuzzy with fatigue. “Asmir’s not here yet, but I expect him momentarily.” He stacked some papers together, thrust them into a lockbox, keyed the box to hold, and turned off his node. In the corner of the room the tell-me swam with wavering bands of color, silent. “You look as weary as I feel.”

She laughed, unconvincingly. “I’m all right. Stella is on one of her usual tears. Some time ago I asked Persun to take her down to the village, thinking she could find someone there to share her time with. She’s been there once or twice and refuses to go back. She says they’re all provincials, ignorant as cabbages.”

“Well, that’s probably true.”

“Even so—“ she started to say, intending to make some comment about pride, realizing just in time that it would annoy Rigo, “Tony says not. He finds companionship there.”

“Stella may find some kindred spirit at the reception,”

Marjorie shook her head. “No one Stella’s age is coming.”

“We invited families.”

“No one Stella’s age is coming,” she repeated. “It’s almost as though they’d decided not to allow any ... any fraternization.”

He flushed angrily. “Damned hidebound ...” His voice became a wordless snarl to which the knock at the door was a welcome interruption.

A servant announced the arrival of Asmir Tanlig, who had spent the time since his hiring inquiring here and there about illness on Grass. Who had died, and of what? Who was suffering, and from what? Who had gone to the doctors at Commons, and for what. Now he plumped his small square body down across from Roderigo and Marjorie, his round face puzzled, his mouth pursed, his precise little hands shuffling his papers, preparing to tell them what he had found

“I’m not finding much, sir, madam, to tell you the truth. With the bons it’s pregnancy and hunting accidents and liver renewals because of all the drinking they do” He wiped his lips on a clean handkerchief and lowered his already confidential voice as he leaned across Rigo’s desk where the lamplight pooled in the dusk. “I’ve told my family in Commons to ask around, has anyone disappeared—“

“Vanished,” murmured Marjorie. “Weknowthey have.”

“Yes, ma’am, except if you’re talking about hunting, the vanished ones are mostly young. The ambassador told me ...”

“I know.” she murmured. “I just wanted to keep it in mind.”

“As we shall,” said Rigo. “What about the non-bons, Asmir?”

“Oh, it’s everything. Accidents and allergies and in Portside there are always a few killings. Everyone accounted for, though; no disappearances except for those who’ve gone into the grass or the swamp forest.”

“Ah?” asked Rigo.

“Of course that’s always gone on,” said the man, suddenly doubtful. “For as long as I can remember. People going into the swamp forest and not coming out. People getting lost in the grass.”

“Who?” asked Marjorie. “Who, lately?”

“The last one was some big braggart of a fellow from off-planet.” Asmir referred to his notes, written neatly in a tiny, meticulous hand on various scraps of paper, which he arranged and rearranged as they spoke. “Bontigor. Hundry Bontigor. Loud mouth, people said. Swagger. Full of dares and boasts. Someone dared him to go into the swamp forest, and he went. Didn’t come out. He was only here on a weeklong permit, between ships. Nobody missed him much.”

“Has there been a case in which someone disappeared and it was ... merelyassumedthat the person had gone into the forest?” Marjorie ran pinching fingers up the bridge of her nose and across her forehead, trying to evict the headache that had settled there.

Asmir shuffled his notes once again. “Last ones, before Bontigor, were kids. Nobody saw them go in there, if that’s what you mean. Time before that ... well. Time before that was an old woman. Kind of gone, if you take my meaning. People couldn’t find her, so they thought—“

“Ah,” said Marjorie.

“Then there was that couple over at Maukerden village. And the carpenter from Smaerlok. And here’s somebody from Laupmon—“

“Lost in the grasses?”

He nodded. “But that’s always happened.”

“How many?” asked Rigo. “How many do you have listed, within the past collect? No, that would have been winter. Say last fall. How many assumed lost in the swamp forest or the grass last fall?”

“Fifly,” estimated Asmir. “Fifty or so.”

“Not many.” murmured Marjorie. “It could be what they think it is. Or it could be ... illness.”

Rigo sighed. “Go on, Asmir. Keep gathering. Get everything you can about disappearances—who disappeared, how old they were. whether they seemed healthy before they went, things like that. Is Sebastian helping you?”

“Yes, sir. I gave you his information along with mine.”

“Keep at it, then, both of you.”

“If you could tell me—“

“I told you what I could when I hired you, Asmir.”

“I thought ... I thought perhaps you didn’t trust me then.”

“I trusted you then and now.” Rigo smiled, one of his rare and charming smiles. “I told you I’m taking a special census for Sanctity. It has to do with human mortality. I’ve told you quite lot about Sanctity and how it tries to keep track of the human race, so you can understand why Sanctity would be concerned with what people die of. But the aristos won’t allow Sanctity to have a mission on Grass, so Marjorie and I agreed to find out what we can. However, we’re not going to offend the bons, so we’ll do it quietly. All we want to know is if there is any unexplained mortality on Grass.”

“If anybody mortals in the swamp forest, you’ll never explain it,” Asmir said firmly. “If they mortal in the grasses at night, it’s probably foxen. You’ve seen foxen?”

Marjorie nodded. She had seen foxen. Not close enough to describe, but quite as close as she cared to come.

“You’ve seen more’n me, then,” he said, lapsing into a less portentous style. “But I’ve seen pictures.”

“I take it you don’t go out into the grass?”

“Oh, sir, no! What kind of flick bird do you take me for? Oh, daytimes, yes, a little way, for a picnic or a romantic walk, say. Or to get away by yourself for a bit. But that’s what village walls are for, and estancia walls too. To keep them out.”

“Them?” queried Marjorie, gently.

He told the roll of them, words that clanged like the toll of a knell as his awestruck voice invoked incipient funerals out of each one: “Peepers. The thing that cries out in the deep night—The great grazers. Hounds. Hippae. Foxen. All them.”

“And no one really goes far into the prairie?”

“People say the Green Brothers do. Or some of them. If so, they’re the only ones that dare. And how they dare. I wouldn’t know.”

“The Green Brothers,” mused Rigo. “Oh, yes. Sanctity’s penitential monks. The ones digging up the Arbai city. Sender O’Neil mentioned the Green Brothers. How would we go about reaching them?”

Rillibee Chime, robed in unfamiliar green, his tear-streaked face unpowdered, crouched behind Brother Mainoa in a little aircar as it scuttled bouncily northward. “Can you tell me where we’re going?” he asked, wondering whether he cared—He felt hag-ridden and nauseated, unsure even of his own identity, he who had always fought so hard to keep it.

“To the Arbai city I’ve been digging,” said Brother Mainoa comfortably. “Some ways north of here. We’ll stop there for a day or two, let you get to feeling better, then I’ll take you on up to the Friary. I’m supposed to bring you directly there, but I’ll tell ‘em you were sick. Soon as you get to the Friary, either Jhamlees Zoe or the climbers’ll be after you, and there’s nothing I can do about that. So, best you be feeling well when we get there.”

“Climbers?” Rillibee asked, wondering what on all this great, flat prairie there was to climb.

“You’ll learn about them soon enough. Not much I could tell you. They started their nonsense long after I was young enough to take part in it. You’ll feel better sooner if you lie down, you know. Lie down for a little bit and when we’re out of this wind, I’ll let the tell-me drive while I get you some broth.”

Rillibee let his crouch sag into a slump, the slump into a prostrate misery full of gulpings and more silent tears. Ever since they had wakened him from coldsleep he’d had these nightmares, these horrid feelings, this insatiable hunger.

“What did you do to get sent to us?” Brother Mainoa asked. “Tear one of the angels off Sanctity and sell it to the Pope?”

Rillibee sniveled, finding this funny in a sodden way. “No,” he managed. “Nothing quite that bad.”

“What, then?”

“I asked questions out loud.” He reflected. “Well, I screamed them, really. In refectory.”

“What kinds of questions?”

“What good it would do to have us all listed in the machines when we were all dead. How reading our names in empty rooms gave us immortality. Whether the plague wasn’t going to kill us all. That kind of questions.” He sobbed again, remembering the horror and confusion and his own inability to control what he was doing.

Ah.” Brother Mainoa struggled with the controls, grunting as he punched buttons that did not seem to want to stay punched. “Fouled up houndy uselessness,” he muttered. “Damned shitty mechanics.” At length the controls responded to being whacked with the palm of his hand and the car settled upon a level course. “Broth,” he said calmly and comfortingly, smiling down at Rillibee. “So you asked about plague, did you?”

Rillibee didn’t reply.

After a time the older man said, “We’ll have to come up with a name for you.”

“I’ve got a name.” Even in the depths of his present depression he bridled at the thought that he could not keep his own name.

“Not a Friary name, you don’t. Friary names have to be made up out of certain qualities.” Brother Mainoa whacked the cooker with the flat of his hand, scowling at it. “Twelve consonant sounds and five vowels, each with its own holy attribute.”

“That’s nonsense,” mumbled Rillibee, licking tears from the corner of his mouth. “You know that’s nonsense. That’s the kind of thing— That’s what I was asking in refectory. Why so much nonsense?”

“Got too much for you?”

Rillibee nodded.

“Me, too,” said Brother Mainoa. “Except I didn’t ask questions. I tried to run away. You were probably a pledged acolyte too, weren’t you? How long were you pledged for?”

“I wasn’t really pledged. They took me, is all, when ... well, when I didn’t have anyplace else to go. They said twelve years and I could do what I wanted.”

“Me, I was pledged for five years, but I couldn’t get through them. Just couldn’t. My folks pledged me from my fifteenth birthday. By age seventeen I was here on Grass, digging up Arbai bones, and I’ve been here since. Penitent as all get-out. Ah, well. Maybe if I’d been a little older.” He took the steaming cup from the cooker. “Here, drink this. It really will help. Elder Brother Laeroa gave me some years ago when he fetched me from the port, though he was only young Brother Laeroa then, and I’ve given some to a dozen since then. It always seems to help. You’ll be hungry all the time for a long time, then eventually it’ll taper off. Don’t know why. Just part of bein’ on Grass. You can tell me about yourself, too. More I know about you, easier it’ll be to help you out,”

Rillibee sipped, not knowing what to say. “You want the story of my life?”

Mainoa thought about this for a time, his face adopting varying expressions of acceptance and rejection before it finally cleared. “Yes, I guess I do. Some people, I wouldn’t, you know. But you, I think so.”

“Why me?”

“Oh, one thing and another. The way you look. Your name. Now that’s an unusual name for one of the Sanctified.”

“I never was one of them. They just took me, I told you.”

“Tell me more, boy. Tell me everything there is to know.”

Rillibee sighed, wondering what there was to know, remembering, unable not to remember.

The house in Red Canyon had thick adobe walls, mud walls that stayed warm at night and cool in the day. The walls crumbled a little in the winter snow and when it rained, so that every summer Miriam and Joshua and Song and Rillibee had to spend most of a week putting more adobe on and smoothing it out and letting it dry. Inside the house the floors were tiled. One floor was red and the one in the next room was green, one was blue, the next one had patterns in the tiles. Song taught him to play hopscotch on the tiles in his bedroom, and there were dark and light ones in front of the fireplace, little ones, about two inches across, where Joshua and Miriam played checkers. The checkers were made out of clay, too, with leaves pressed into the tops so the pattern stayed after the leaves burned away. Miriam fired them in the same oven she fired the floor tile in, the funny old brick kiln out back, the one that pulled the fire in from the front

There were three bedrooms, a little one each for Rillibee and Songbird and a big one for Joshua and Miriam. Sometimes Rillibee called them Mom and Dad and sometimes he called them by their names. Miriam said it was all right, because sometimes he meant to talk to his Mom or his Dad and other times he just meant to talk to somebody named Miriam or Joshua.

The kitchen was a big room and the common room was bigger yet, with a painting of Miriam over the fireplace and two big, squashy couches. There were old, old Indian rugs on the floors and a table where they all ate supper. Mostly they ate breakfast in the kitchen.

Joshua’s shop was off to one side, with a cellar partly under it and partly under Rillibee’s room. Joshua used the cellar to store the wood he would turn into tables and chairs and cabinets after it had seasoned. There were power tools in the shop and Miriam’s potter’s wheel and a big door along the creek side that stood open all summer long.

The low, earthen bulk of the house and shop stretched along Red Creek beside monstrous old cottonwoods that dangled their leafy branches over it, green in summer, heartbreak gold in the fall. Miriam called it that. Heartbreak gold. So beautiful it made you catch your breath when the sun came through, like the touch of the hand of God. Miriam said a lot of things like that, old-fashioned kinds of things. Even her name was old-fashioned. A really antique name, from a long, long time before.

His father, too. Joshua. That was an antique name for you. Even the things Joshua and Miriam did were old-fashioned things, things nobody else did—woodworking, pottery, gardening, making things with their hands, growing things in the soil.

In between making stuff or growing stuff they were always taking Rillibee and Songbird out to show them something or other, a flower or a crawdad or a fish. There were lots of fish in the creek. There were deer in the canyon. There were sage chickens and wild turkey on the rimrock, way up there. “This is one of the few places on earth that man hasn’t made garbage out of,” Joshua said sometimes, pointing up the canyon. “Live in it. Watch out for it. Take care of it. Every springtime move out to the front edge of it and plant something that will live longer than you do.”

Joshua and Miriam had been doing that for twenty years, ever since Joshua came back from Repentence, planting things every spring. Up the canyon along Red Creek the trees were old and big. Joshua’s grandfather had planted those. Orchards stood below the house, apple and cherry and plum, trees four times as tall as Joshua, clouds of blossoms in the spring, Joshua’s father had planted the fruit trees. Then came the groves Joshua had planted, young conifers, shorter and shorter ones as they reached the edge of the green belt Joshua and Miriam had made. Beyond the green was the gray, flat land: dry soil specked with knapweed and thistle and thorny brush, cut by the dusty knife edge of the road. Down that road was the town and the school, a Sanctity town and a Sanctity school. Rillibee’s folks weren’t Sanctified, but they sent Rillibee to school there anyhow. It was closest, and besides the things Joshua and Miriam taught him, he needed to learn the things a school could teach. School was only a mile away, easy to get to most of the year. Once in a while they’d be snowed in for a week or so, but that was rare. Sometimes Rillibee brought kids home from school with him, but that was rare, too. Mostly they thought he was strange.

Their parents all worked in comnet cubicles at their apartments, or they worked in one of the technical centers along the surface route! They went back and forth on covered walkways. If they needed to go very far, they had hovers. Joshua and Miriam had donkeys, for cries sake. Donkeys. It was enough to make Rillibee’s schoolmates chop themselves into pieces laughing about the earthfreaks who ate food they grew themselves and wouldn’t use dirty words and wore funny-looking clothes. Rillibee never heard the word earthfreak until he was in fourth category. Then he thought he’d never hear the end of it.

Rillibee minded more than Song did. She had a boyfriend who belonged to another earthfreak family over in Rattlesnake, and the two of them got along fine. Jason was his name. Another old-time name. Jason used some bad words, but never in front of Joshua. That’s one thing Joshua was death on, bad words, and when he was around, Rillibee was careful not to say any.

“Why’d you call me Rillibee?” he complained to his mother after one particularly bad day at school when everyone was busy making fun of him for his name and his clothes and his folks. “Why Rillibee?”

“It’s the sound the water makes running over stones,” she said. “I heard it the night before you were born.”

How could you yell at somebody over that? She just stood there, smiling at him, taking hot cookies out of the oven, piling them onto a plate for him, getting him a cup of the milk she’d put in the stream to cool. “Rillibee,” she said, so that he heard the water sound in it. “Rillibee.”

“The kids at school think it’s funny,” he muttered, mouth full.

“I suppose,” she agreed. “They’d think Miriam is funny, too. What are they all called now? Brom. And Bolt. And Rym. And Jolt.”

“Not Jolt.”

“Oh. Excuse me. Not Jolt.” She was laughing at him. “They all sound like laundry sonics.”

He had to agree they did. Bolt sounded like something that would shake the donkey hair out of your socks. Jolt sounded even more so.

One day Joshua brought a parrot home. It was a small gray parrot with some green feathers on it.

“What on earth?” Miriam asked. “Joshua?”

“Those cabinets I built for the Brants, you know?”

“Of course I know.”

“He really liked them. He gave me the bird as a bonus.”

Miriam shook her head, annoyed. Rillibee knew she was thinking about the mess the bird would make. “Wanted to get rid of it, most likely”

Joshua put his hands in his pockets and stood there, looking at the bird where he’d set it on its perch at one side of the fire. “He said it was valuable.”

Miriam was looking at the bird with her lips tight together as though she wanted to say something nasty.

“Shit,” said the bird clearly. “Excrement.” Then it shit on the floor.

Miriam laughed. She couldn’t help herself. She was all bent over giggling.

Joshua was red in the face, mad, not able to say a thing.

“Well, he certainly talks,” Miriam said.

“I’ll take him back! Right after supper.”

“Oh, for heaven’s sake, Josh, leave him. We’ll teach him some better language. You know, the bird doesn’t know what he’s saying. It isn’t as though there’s a brain there, telling him to talk dirty. He’s just imitating sounds he hears.”

“He didn’t hear that!”

“Sounds he remembers.”

So they’d kept the parrot. It never learned any nicer words about anything, though it didn’t talk much; but every time Miriam got mad and acted like she’d like to say something but couldn’t, darned if that bird didn’t. Rillibee noticed it right away. Every time Miriam got really mad, here was the parrot saying “Shit” in this dreamy voice, or “Dammit” or once, “Fuckit” Joshua hadn’t heard that one, or there’d probably have been a dead parrot.

Rillibee moved into the fifth category when he was eleven, becoming a five-cat before most of his age-mates. That hadn’t made them any easier to get along with. His mentors were old lady Balman and old man Snithers. Balman taught programming and information. Snithers taught retrieval skills. The older kids in five called her Ballsy because, so they said, she had more than Sniffy did. Rillibee had no idea what that meant until he asked Joshua, and then he got about an hour’s lecture on sexuality as metaphor in dominance. The truth of it was that Snithers was an old lady, all fussy and picky, while Balman had a fine the-hell-with-it attitude that all the kids liked, which was more or less what Joshua said only in different words.

There had been one particular day. an unremarkable day, with nothing much happening at school except that Wurn March told them goodbye because he was going to Sanctity for five years as a pledged acolyte. Wurn had looked confused about it. When they asked him if he wanted to go, he’d looked like he was about to cry.

Out in the corridor. Ballsy told Sniffy that Sanctity could have him and welcome, and then they both laughed and got red when they saw that Rillibee had heard them talking. He’d been on his way back from the toilets, and they sent him back to retrieval practice in a hurry. Rillibee agreed with Ballsy that nobody would miss Wurn March. Wurn had been in five for longer than he should have. He was larger than most of the boys, and louder, and he liked to hit smaller kids, and he always borrowed stuff and didn’t give it back.

Other than that happening, it was just a day. It was the first day Rillibee had ever heard about pledged acolytes, but it was just a day.

When he got home, Miriam was in the kitchen, as usual at that time of afternoon. There were a lot of good smells in there with her, and Rillibee threw his arms around her, for once not caring what anybody else thought. She was his mom and if he wanted to hug her, so what.

So what happened was she gasped and pulled away. “Ouch,” she said, smiling so he’d know it wasn’t his fault. “I’ve got a sore place on my arm, Rilli. You kind of whacked it when you grabbed me.”

He had been sorry, insisting on examining the sore place, which looked terrible, all gray and puffy. Joshua came in behind him and looked at it, too.

“Miriam, you’d better go to the Health Office about that. It looks infected.”

“I thought it was getting better.”

“Worse, if anything. You’ve probably got a splinter of something in there. Have it seen to.” Then Joshua kissed her and the parrot said, “Oh, hell,” which set everyone off, and that was all.

The next afternoon when Rillibee got home, Songbird was there but Miriam wasn’t. Song was looking for the cake Miriam had baked the night before and hidden from them.

“Where’s Mom?” he wanted to know.

“She went to the Health,” his sister reminded him, burrowing in the cold cupboards.

He nodded, remembering. “When’ll she be home?” He wanted to tell her about Wurn March and what the teacher said and ask her about pledged acolytes.

“When she’s finished, dummo,” Song said. “You ask the dumbest questions.” She opened the side door and went outside to peer down the road.

Rillibee followed her. “You wanna hear a dumb question? When are you going to grow up? That’s a dumb question, ‘cause the answer is never.”

“Brat,” she said. “Dumb little brat. Still suck your thumb.”

“Stop it,” Joshua said, coming across the yard from his workshop. “The two of you! Song, there’s no excuse for talking like that I don’t want to hear another word out of either of you. Song, go in and set the table. Rillibee, go pick up that junk you left scattered all over the common room last night. Put the rug back down, too. I’m going to start supper so your mother won’t have to do it when she comes home.”

There was quiet then, quiet for several hours. Rillibee remembered the quiet as a prelude to what happened later. Much later that quiet came to stand for tragedy, so that he would be uncomfortable with too much tranquility, too much silence. The evening sun slanting into the living room through the tall windows made pools of gold on Dad’s wide-planked floor and on the castle Rillibee had built the night before. He destroyed it and all its battlements, picked up the pieces, packed up his warriors, and put the rug back down, taking time to comb out the fringes with his fingers so they laid straight, like soldiers. Above him, on the perch, the parrot shifted. Rillibee looked up at it, and it whispered, “Oh, damn. Damn. Oh, God. Oh, no.” It sounded almost like Miriam’s voice.

Time went on until the sunlight vanished and his stomach gave an unmistakable signal. He went to the kitchen to find his father and Song waiting and Mom not home. “It’s time to eat,” he complained.

“So, we’ll eat,” his father said in a worried voice. “Your mom wouldn’t want us to wait for her. She’s been held up or something.” They were just sitting down at the table when the door-signal went. Somebody coming through the gate. Dad got up and went to the door, a smile on his face. Rillibee relaxed. She probably had stopped to buy groceries. Or sometimes she took a sample of her pottery to someone she thought might like to buy it. It was probably something like that that had kept her so long. But the voice at the front door wasn’t Mom’s voice. Somebody loud, a man, demanding to know where she was.

“Miriam hasn’t come home yet, “Joshua said firmly. “We don’t know.” Then he exclaimed in anger as the man pushed past him and came on into the house. “What do you think you’re doing?”

“Looking,” the man said. He was a big man. Bigger than Dad.

Dressed in a white uniform with a mask thing around his neck and a green insignia on his shoulders. “Get on with your dinner, kids,” he instructed them. “I’ll only take a moment.” And he went through into the kitchen, then back into the bedrooms. Rillibee heard the closet doors opening and closing, then the man went out the front door and around into the shop. They could hear him banging around out there. Rillibee put down his fork very carefully, looking at his dad, so pale all of a sudden.

When the man came out he stood in the yard for a while, looking around, then he came back to the front door and asked Dad to come out. He talked quietly out there, but Rillibee could hear words, single words, “authority” and “penalty” and “custody.”

Rillibee fell silent.

Brother Mainoa waited awhile, then said, “They talk like that, don’t they. People who get to tell other folks what to do. Full of powerful words, they are. Sometimes I think they have words where most of us have blood.”

Rillibee didn’t say anything.

“Hard for you to talk about?”

Rillibee nodded, gulping, unable to talk at all.

“That’s all right. Wait until you feel better, then tell me.”

They flew, the car bouncing a little on the sun-warmed air. After a time, Rillibee began to tell it again.

Then the big man was gone and Dad was in the common room, sitting down at the table once more, his face like a rock, all frozen and hard.

“Dad?”

“Don’t, Rillibee. Don’t ask me anything right now. The man was looking for your mother and she’s not here. That’s all I know right now.”

“But who was he?”

“A man from Health.”

“Oh, damn. Oh, God,” the parrot said.

Joshua threw a soup spoon at the parrot. It made a splashy red place on the wall and fell on the floor. The parrot just looked at them, its black eyes swiveling back and forth as it whispered to itself.

The man didn’t come back. Mom didn’t come home. Dad paced the room, stopping every now and then to punch up people on the comnet. People Mom knew. Her sister over in Rattlesnake. Her friends. People like that

When bedtime came, Rillibee looked out of the window of his own room to see the hover parked out on the flat. The man was watching the house. After a long time, Rillibee got into bed, dark all around him, trying to see through it to the ceiling, to the walls, only a splinter of light under the door. Tears. Trying to be quiet so Song wouldn’t hear him through the wall. Finally, sleep.

It had to have been sleep, because he woke up to a strange noise. Scratching, near his head. From under him, under his bed. Under the floor.

He thought about monsters first, not daring to move. Only after it had gone on for some time did he remember the cellar that Dad used to store wood in. A long time ago it had been a root cellar. Joshua had dug it bigger so it extended all the way to the shop. The entrance to it was out there in the shop, behind the woodstacks, but there was a hatch to it under Rillibee’s bed, from long ago. Someone was in there, scratching.

He slipped out of the bed and went to tell Joshua. Then he kept still while Joshua moved the bed, a little at a time, almost silently, and heaved the doorway up and it was Mom down there, white and pale, with her face all streaked and her hair tangled and messy and her clothes dirty as though she’d been crawling, and she was saying, “Josh, oh, God, Josh, they were going to send me away, they were going to send me away, and I went out the window. I ran and ran. I crawled down the creek and came in through the little door behind the shop. Hide me, don’t let them get me, Josh.”

“Never, darling,” he said. “Never.”

Silence again.

Mainoa said, “Your father must have loved her a lot.”

“I’ve never forgotten that,” Rillibee said, his voice liquid and bubbling in his throat. “I think about it at night sometimes, when I’m trying to sleep. I hear their voices. I remember how confused I was. Why had someone wanted to get her? Why had the people wanted to send her away? What had she done? She and Joshua didn’t tell me. They didn’t tell Song. All they had said was to pretend she hadn’t come home, just pretend they hadn’t seen her....”

Mom went to bed in her own bed, with Dad. The next morning, real early, Rillibee had wakened to some unfamiliar sound, something happening on the road. He peeked out at the corner of the shade and saw the man getting out of the white hover, out beyond the baby trees. He woke Dad and Mom just in time. She barely had time to get back down in the wood cellar and have Rillibee’s bed moved back on top of the hatch.

“Lie down there and look sleepy,” Dad commanded on his way to answer the thunder at the door.

Rillibee put his head under the pillow and told himself he was dreaming. The man from Health stamped in and pulled the pillow off, but Rillibee managed to look confused and angry as though the man had wakened him.

After that, Mom slept in the cellar. Dad moved a cot down there and a special kind of toilet he put together in the shop, one that didn’t need water. During the daytime, she came up whenever there was somebody there to watch for the man in the white hover, but if there was no one home, she had to hide.

Joshua bandaged the place on her arm. It was just a little place. About the size of a peach pit. By the end of the week, it had gotten quite a bit bigger, covering the whole elbow. It hurt her, too. Then it began to spread up and down her arm until the whole arm was raw and ugly, like meat. It hurt her to change the bandage, but if it wasn’t changed, it started to smell. They changed the bandage every night. Song held the basin with warm water in it, to wash the raw place. Rillibee handed Dad the bandages. The parrot sat on its perch saying, “Oh, damn, damn. Oh, God,” but none of them paid any attention.

The man came back. Once he brought two other men and they searched the house, but they didn’t find the place under Rillibee’s bed. By this time, Joshua had made the hatch almost invisible, fitting the wood together so you couldn’t see where it joined.

Once in a while, she’d come up in the daytime, while Song and Rillibee were at school. At night, when she came up, she’d tell them what she’d done, where she’d walked. “The leaves are turning,” she’d say. “Did you notice, Rillibee? Heartbreak gold. God, they’re so beautiful.” Then they talked about what they’d have for dinner the next night. She’d tell Joshua what to buy and how much. She’d tell Songbird how to cook it and Rillibee how to help. Then they’d talk awhile, maybe play a game, then change the bandage last thing and she’d go back down.

The bad night was when they were changing the bandage and some pieces came off. Mom made a noise, as though she was going to throw up, as though she was going to scream but couldn’t get enough air.

“Out,” Joshua said to both of them, pointing to the door, his face stretched into some horrible grin, like a pumpkin lantern, the sides of his mouth wide open and tight with all the teeth showing.

They ran into the kitchen. Song was crying and making a little grinding noise, trying to hold it in, and Rillibee was telling himself it was a dream, a bad dream, it wasn’t really happening at all. He had seen the bones in Mom’s hand, where the two fingers had come off, two round, white, slick things. The place wasn’t bleeding, just kind of oozing, slow drops of grayish liquid pushing out from the flesh and running down to make a small stained place on the clean bandages that stank like nothing he could ever have imagined. The smell had settled in the back of his throat as though it would never leave. After that, Dad wouldn’t let either of them be in the room when he changed the bandage. After a while, he wouldn’t let them be in the room with her at all. They could still hear her voice. For a while she sounded just like Mom. Once even they heard her laugh, a high, dreadful laugh. Then, after a while, there was no voice, just this high, whiny sound like a dog that’d been hit by a car, or a rabbit when a hawk takes it.

And the smell. Every night, rising at him out of the cellar below him. A terrible stink. Worse than any bathroom stink. “Oh, oh, no,” said the parrot. “Oh. God. No.” Dad changed rooms with Rillibee. Days went by and Rillibee never really saw her after that. He lay there in Dad’s bed at night, trying to remember what she had looked like. He couldn’t remember. He wanted to see the picture of her, the one over the fireplace.

In the living room, he turned on one lamp and looked up at the picture. She smiled down at him, out of the paint, her shiny hair falling over her forehead, her lips curved.

“Let me die,” whispered the parrot. “Oh, please, please, let me die.”

“Shut up,” Rillibee screamed at it silently, the words pushing out of him like huge, burning pieces of vomit. “Shut up, shut up.”

He told himself he wouldn’t go in there anymore. He wouldn’t listen to that bird anymore. He ate in the kitchen. He did his school-work. He didn’t ask any questions. He didn’t talk about Mom.

“That must have been hard,” said Brother Mainoa. “Oh, that must have been hard.”

“I couldn’t stop thinking about her. I couldn’t. Her face would come into my mind, but then it would turn gray at the edges, starting to curl, like a picture burning, and I couldn’t see what she looked like, couldn’t remember what she looked like. I stood it as long as I could, and then went into the living room once more to look at the painting of her.

“The parrot said, ‘Kill me. Please, please, kill me.’”

It was the day after that, Rillibee’s twelfth birthday, that he woke up knowing it had all been a dream. The sun poured through his window, heartbreak gold. He got up and dressed and plunged out into the living room. The parrot was walking up and down its perch saying, “Thank God. Thank God. Thank God.”

Song was already there, sitting at the table. There was a package wrapped at his place. He sat down and grinned at it, turning it over and over, shaking it to guess what was inside.

“Happy birthday, Rillibee,” Dad said from the kitchen door. “I’m making pancakes.” His voice sounded funny, but the words were all right.

“Happy birthday, Rillibee,” said Song. She sounded like a recording.

Dad came in with a pitcher of juice and leaned over the table to pour it.

There was a sore on the side of Dad’s neck, toward the back. Little. The size of a peanut. Like the sore had been on Mom’s arm. When Dad went back to the kitchen, Rillibee tried to tell Song, but Song just sat there, frozen, not saying anything at all. Then he noticed the bandage on her hand and wondered how long it had been there without his seeing it.

He got up without opening the package and went out of the house, through the orchard to the groves, and down through all of them, the trees getting tinier and tiner the farther he went, until he came to the place where there was nothing growing at all....

“Did you ever see them again?” asked Brother Mainoa. There was a long silence. Rillibee was staring out the window, mouth slightly open, tears washing his face. “I went crazy in school and started yelling something. That night when I got home, there was no one there, just the man from Sanctity, who said to come along with him. I was going to be an acolyte, he said. They never said anything about Miriam or Joshua or Song. When I asked, they told me my people had died a long time ago, that I’d just forgotten. They never even asked if my family was Sanctity. We weren’t. I’m still not.” Brother Mainoa sipped at his own broth, occasionally slapping at a control button that kept threatening to disengage itself. “Brother Lourai—how does that sound?”

“How should it sound?”

“Well, the I sound is for patience, and thersound is for perseverance. I thought you could use a little of that.”

“What does themsound in Mainoa mean?” Rillibee asked tiredly. “And the n?”

“Resignation.” murmured the other. “And reliability.”

“Rebellion, did you say?”

“Shush, youngster. Lourai’s a good name. You should hear some of the throat-stoppers Acceptable Doctrine comes up with from time to time. Fouyaisoa Sheefua. How would you like that? Foh-oo-yah-ee-soh-ah Shee-foo-ah. Or Thoirae Yoanee. You wouldn’t want something like that hung on you. Lourai. That’s good enough.”

“What’s acceptable doctrine?”

“Acceptable Doctrine?” Brother Mainoa asked. He took the empty cups away and put them down the recycler. “Well, if you’d been a little older before they dragged you off to Sanctity, you’d have learned what the Office of Security and Acceptable Doctrine is. That’s the group of enlightened ones who tell us what we can believe and what we can’t and make sure we do it. Here on Grass they’re headed up by Elder Brother Jhamlees Zoe, with Elder Brother Noazee Fuasoi as his next man.”

“Like the Hierophants,” cried Rillibee. “God, I wish I could get away from that.”

“You can. Just walk off the site into the grasses, any day. Put your shovel or your soil stabilizer down and go. Nobody’ll come after you. I could’ve done that lots of times, but I always knew there’d be something interesting in the next shovelful, something intriguing behind the next bit of wall, so I don’t. All in all, I’m glad to be here rather than there. Maybe you will be, too. Just bow your head and say, ‘Yes, Elder Brother,’ in a nice obedient tone, kind of sorrowful, and they’ll let you alone.”

“How can you do that?” Rillibee asked scornfully. “It’s dishonest.”

Brother Mainoa seated himself at the controls once more, scanning the dials and buttons with a skeptical eye. “Well, now, young Brother Lourai, I’ll tell you. I’ll deny having said it if you quote me, so don’t try. The first thing you’ve got to do is tell yourself that the shitheads are wrong. Especially Jhamlees and Fuasoi. Not just a little bit wrong, but irremediably, absolutely, and endemically wrong. Nothing you can say or do will stop their being wrong. They’re damned to eternal wrongness, and that’s God’s will. You follow me?”

Rillibee nodded, doubtfully. Whatever he might have expected, it had not been this.

“Then, you acknowledge that these wrongheaded fart-asses have been placed in authority over you through some cosmic miscalculation, and you reach the only possible conclusion.”

“Which is?”

“Which is you bow your head and say ‘Yes, Elder Brother,’ in a nice humble tone, and you go right on believing what you have to believe. Anything else is like walking out into the grass when the grazers are coming by. You may be right, but you’ll be flat right and there won’t be enough left of you to scrape up.”

“And that’s what you do?”

“Umm. And you do it, too. Don’t tell Elder Brother Jhamlees Zoe that your family wasn’t Sanctified. You tell him that, he’ll start working on your head, getting you to convert, get saved, get enrolled. Just nod politely and say, ‘Yes, Elder Brother.’ That way, likely, he’ll leave you alone.”

There was a long silence. Rillibee—Brother Lourai—rose from the padded floor and settled himself into the other seat. When Brother Mainoa showed no signs of breaking the quiet, he asked, “What’s Arbai?”

“An Arbai, Brother, was the inhabitant of an Arbai city, dead some long while, now. An Arbai city is the only kind of ruins mankind’s found on any world we’ve settled yet. The only intelligent race we’ve ever found.”

“What were they like? Arbai?”

“Taller than us. About seven feet tall. Two-legged and two-armed, like us, but with a skin all covered over with little plates or scales.

We’ve found bodies pretty well mummified, so we know what they looked like. They were fascinating people. Like us, some ways. Spread all over a lot of worlds, like us. Had writing, like us. not that we can read it yet. Not like us at all, other ways. Didn’t seem to have males and females like we do, at least there’s no differences we’ve found yet.”

“All gone, are they?”

“All gone. All died, everywhere, all sort of at once, like time had just up and ended for them. Except here on Grass. Here they all died from something tearing them apart.”

“How do you know?”

“It’s how we find ‘em, Brother. An arm here, a leg there. A bone raggedy from teeth.”

“What are you looking for?”

“Something to tell us why they died, mostly.” Brother Mainoa looked at him curiously. “From what you say, you’ve seen plague, haven’t you, Brother. You know it exists.”

The other nodded. “They never told me so, but that’s what killed my family. And the Hierarch died of it. Lots of the people at Sanctity have it. I may have it, without knowing it.”

“Well, there’s some of us think that’s what killed the Arbai. Better tell you now, it’s not Acceptable Doctrine; so don’t go talking about it.”

“Killed them,” breathed Rillibee. “Going to kill us.”

“Ah. Well, there is that. Maybe not, though. If we could find out something...”

“Do you think we can find out anything about the plague?”

The other turned, the wrinkles around his eyes made deeper by the speculative squint with which the Brother was evaluating his new family member. “What I think,” he purred, “is something you and I may talk about someday after you’ve been out in the grass.” He pointed downward. There, spread across the short turf of the north, were the uncovered walls of the Arbai city and the complex network of ditches dug by the Brothers, some of them roofed with arched bundles of tall grasses. Mainoa pointed again, in the direction of their flight. Almost on the horizon, the ramified mass of the Friary bulked darkly against the pale sky. As they drew nearer, Rillibee/Lourai sucked in an astonished breath. Above the Friary floated a city of cobwebs, netted arches, and skeletal towers that moved in the light wind as though they were living things rooted in the soil far below. From some few of the lofty pinnacles flew the banners of Sanctity, complete with golden angels. On seeing these. Rillibee Chime gave one last, dwindling snarl.

“Home,” said Brother Mainoa. “Not a bad place, really. Though the sky climbers will probably make paste of you for a few weeks. Heights frighten you, boy?”

“Falling frightens me. Heights don’t.”

“Well then, I’d say you’ll survive it.”

“What are sky crawlers?” Rillibee’s stomach knotted at the picture this brought to mind.

“Boys no older than you. most of ‘em. Most likely they won’t harm you much. You’ll get by; that is, you will if you can apply a few sensible restraints to your conduct.”

“Yes, Brother,” said Brother Lourai, his eyes cast humbly down. “I will try to restrain myself.”

8

Before Rigo had a chance to meet the Green Brothers, a morning came when the tell-me shrilled news of the lapse. The bon Damfels had assembled for the Hunt, but no hounds or mounts had appeared. Salla. one of Roald Few’s informants, had sent word to Commons and Roald had messaged Opal Hill.

Long-set plans moved into action. The embassy swarmed with cleaners and cooks, readying for the evening three days distant when the awaited reception would occur.

In the little house, Eugenie bit through a thread and bid her docile pet turn a quarter turn to the left- No one else at Opal Hill had seen Pet yet. And no one anywhere would have ever seen her like this.

At the bon Damfels’, Stavenger ticked off the list of those who would attend. Shevlok, yes. Sylvan, yes. No one younger than Sylvan. None of the young cousins. Shevlok would be ordered to pay putative court to thefragrasgirl, Stella, and that would solve that problem.

In Commons the musicians went over their music and instruments, the wine merchant checked his stores, the extra cooks rolled their knives in their aprons. Aircars began to dart toward Opal Hill.

At bon Smaerlok’s estancia. and at bon Tanlig’s, at all the estancias, the grown women went through their ball gowns, deciding what to wear, while their daughters sulked. None of the young women were going, it had been decided. Too dangerous. Only older women, women with good sense, women with a number of liaisons behind them. Several of them had been picked to flirt with the Yrarier son, several good-looking, experienced ones. Whatever else might occur as the result of Sanctity’s embassy reception on Grass, an inappropriate liaison with a young Yrarier was not going to be allowed. So said the elder bons.

And at Opal Hill Roderigo Yrarier went over the list of those who would attend, noting the absence of young people and simmering at the insult offered to his family and his name.

Obermun bon Haunser had remembered his promise to Marjorie when he had recommended Admit Maukerden as her “secretary.” When she first got around to interviewing the tall, self-important individual, he told her that he knew every bon in every family and who the parents were and what the liaisons had been and who was in sympathy with and who out of sorts with whom. He expected, so he said, a private suite and a salary which made Rigo blink in surprise.

“I don’t trust him,” Marjorie told Rigo.

“Nor do I,” Rigo confessed. “But hire him anyhow. Assign him something to do and let’s see what he comes up with.”

After a little thought, Marjorie asked Admit to compile a file on those who would attend the reception, giving family connections and such personal information as might be helpful to new acquaintances in conducting conversation. He spent a great deal of time at it for one who supposedly knew them all. presenting the final work with a flourish.

Marjorie thanked him with a smile which conveyed nothing but ignorance and appreciation. She and Rigo then gave the file to Persun Pollut.

“Oh, my lame left leg.” Persun muttered. “That fool doesn’t know a cousin from an aunt or a bon Maukerden from a bon Bindersen.”

“Not accurate?” she queried sweetly.

“Except for the Obermums and Obermuns, there’s hardly a thing here that’s not plain wrong. He’d of done better guessing. If you’d done any introductions on the basis of this, the bons would have had your bones for supper.”

“Which would indicate either monumental stupidity or purposeful misinformation.” Rigo grinned through clenched teeth.

“He’s intelligent enough in his own interest,” Marjorie responded. “Then he was instructed to be useless,” Rigo said. “More than useless. Destructive. Which, I think, tells us all we need to know about him and a good bit more about them.”

Thereafter, Marjorie pretended to consult Admit Maukerden from time to time and Rigo amused himself by giving the man false information about the purpose of the embassy, waiting to see which parts of it would come back to him, in whatever guise, via the bons. Meantime, Persun corrected the file on the guests and went over it with Rigo’s trusted assistant, Andrea Chapelside. It was Persun who set down accurate details about the bons. “This one is more important than he looks,” he said. “This one is malicious and will misquote you.”

And it was Persun, dressed in servant’s livery, who was assigned to circulate among the guests to hear what he could hear. Admit Maukerden, splendidly costumed to fit his idea of his own importance, would be relegated to a post near the first surface from which he could announce the arrivals with a fine and completely spurious air of authority, separated by a thwarting distance from anything that might transpire in the rooms above him. Though Marjorie doubted that anything of consequence would happen, Rigo had faith that something of great importance would follow his enormous investment of time and attention.

The evening arrived. Aircars dropped swiftly to the gravel court to disgorge their bejeweled and ornamented riders, rising as swiftly to make room for those that followed. Marjorie and Stella, gowned as extravagantly as any of the bons—the dresses had been stitched by a whole family of Commons’ seamsters nominated by Roald Few—waited at the top of the stairs that the bons would have to ascend, Marjorie on Rigo’s arm, Stella on Tony’s.

Rigo had foreseen problems and had communicated them fully to the children. “They are not bringing anyone your age. They will not be so undiplomatic or ungracious as to exclude you from their attention, however. You may expect charm and flattery from some of them. Stella, some man or men. Tony, some woman or women. Be charming in return. Seem flattered. But do not be fooled! Do not lose your heads.”

Seeing Tony pale and Stella flush angrily, Marjorie had nodded agreement and said soothing words. She had been warned by Persun Pollut as well, who had heard it from a villager who had heard it from a cousin at bon Maukerden’s. “They want no real contact, Lady. They want no involvement. They have told off some of their family members to pay court to you and yours, but they will do it merely to keep you pleased with yourselves.”

“Why?” she asked. “Why do they reject honesty?”

“Some of them would reject nothing. Some might say welcome if they thought about it. Eric bon Haunser, maybe. Figor bon Damfels, maybe. Some like that. But the Obermuns, the hunters, they say no. They say they came to Grass to get away from others, foreigners. They call youfragras.That is what they say, but I think what they feel is fear. And if you look for fear, look there, among the hunters.”

Asked why the bons should feel fear, he didn’t know. It was only a feeling he had, he said, and he couldn’t say why.

“Why do they fear us?” she had asked Rigo.

“Fear us? Nonsense,” he said angrily. “It is pure pride with them, pride in their fabulous ancestries—fabulous in every sense, for their nobility is more fable than reality. Sender O’Neil told me about their origins. The fool may not have had much right about Grass, but he did know where the bons came from. Their ancestors were minor nobility at best, and not much of that. They can’t go on pretending to be important unless they’ve got something to be important about. When they came here, they brought along plenty of common folk to lord it over, you’ll notice, and they’ve spent the generations since they arrived feeding one another puffery about their histories.”

Marjorie, who had seen among the aristocrats certain twitches of skin, wrinklings around eyes, and pursings of lips, all unconscious, believed that Persun was right. What the bons felt was fear, though the bons might not understand what it was they feared.

Still, whether it was pride or fear that moved them made no difference in their behavior. They arrived as Persun had said they would, in order of their importance, a lot of small fry first: fourth and fifth leaders with their ladies, cousins, and aunts mincing up the stairs as though the treads were hot, old singletons like aged bulls, swinging their heads from side to side to feel their horns. As Admit Maukerden bellowed their names; Andrea, hidden in an alcove, looked each one up and recited the commentary into her whisperphone.”This one is a Laupmon cousin, thirty-four Terran years. She is childless, and she still rides. The next one is an aunt of the Obermum. Fifty-two Terran years. No longer rides.”

Primed by Andrea’s voice, which buzzed in their ears with an insect hum, the Yrariers responded appropriately to each of their guests with charm or pure formality or even frosty coolness to those so chilly they would resent anything else. “So glad you could come,” they murmured, noting each detail of dress or feature and connecting it with the name humming in their ears so they would not forget to be wary of this one or that one as the evening wore on. “Good evening. So very glad you could come.” On the balcony above the largest reception room, musicians played. A dozen villagers hastily trained and tricked out in livery circulated with glasses, putting on the fine air of pomp and disdain which Stella had suggested to them. “What you must convey,” she had told them, giggling, “is that it is better to be a footman at Opal Hill than to be Obermun anywhere else.”

“Stella!” Rigo had expostulated.

“It’s all right, sir,” Asmir Tanlig had said. “We understand the young lady right enough. She wants us proud enough to shame the bons.” And so they were to the last man, bowing like grandees as they offered their trays of glasses, their bits of tasty food, their sotto voce directions to the ladies’ or the gentlemen’s retiring room, along the balcony, near the musicians. The guests stood or sat or wandered, examining each bit of furniture, each set of drapes, some with a slightly discontented air. Little enough there for them to find fault with unless they found fault with themselves. Similar furnishings were found in every estancia. Similar images on the walls. Similar arrangements of flowers. Not so well done, perhaps, but similar. Too similar to cavil at, though one or two made the effort. “So ordinary,” they said. “So everyday. One would think, coming from Sanctity ...” As though they would not have belittled anything that had breathed of Sanctity.

“Good evening How very glad we are to meet you.”

Now the seconds and thirds were beginning to arrive. Eric bon Haunser with Semeles bon Haunser on his arm.”A cousin,”said Andrea’s voice. “At one time said to have been Eric’s lover. She will attempt to seduce Tony, or failing that, the ambassador.”

Was there a quaver in Andrea’s voice at the thought of anyone seducing the ambassador. Was it amusement, perhaps? Gray haired Andrea, who knew Rigo as though he were her own younger brother. Who knew all about Eugenie. Amused? Tony flushed as he bowed over the hand of Semeles bon Haunser. Stella snorted, and Marjorie bit back a cheerless giggle as she smiled and bowed in her turn as Figor took her hand.

“Figor bon Damfels, younger brother of the Obermun. Yie has been instructed to flirt with Lady Westriding. Shevlok bon Damfels. He will pay court to Stella, though unwillingly, for he is still grieving over Janetta bon Maukerden. Sylvan bon Damfels.As usual, no one knows what he is up to.”

Marjorie’s placid voice addressed the bon Damfels’ sons. “Good evening. How nice to see you both again.”

“Good evening, Lady Westriding,” said Sylvan, bowing. “It is kind of you to have planned this amusement for us. We have talked of little else for days.” Smiling at Marjorie, at Stella, manfully clapping Tony on the shoulder, bowing slightly to Rigo. All this charm. In comparison, Shevlok was a poor player, able to muster only a muttered compliment, a sidelong glance, more cowed than seductive. Unconvincing, Marjorie thought. Damned loutish, Stella seethed. Unhappy Shevlok.

“Obermun Stavenger bon Damfels. Obermum Rowena bon Damfels.”

Now the firsts were beginning to appear, and Andrea’s whisperphone was silent. The Yrariers already knew what was common knowledge about the Obermuns, the Obermums.

“Obermun Kahrl bon Bindersen. Obermum Lisian bon Bindersen. Obermun Dimoth bon Maukerden. Obermum Geraldria bon Maukerden.”

“Good evening. We are honored to welcome you.”

“Obermun Gustave bon Smaerlok. Obermum Berta bon Smaerlok. Obermun Jerril bon Haunser. Obermum Felitia bon Haunser.”

“Good evening. Good evening.”

“Obermun Lancel bon Laupmon.”

“Alone,”whispered Andrea. “Recently widowed.”

Then, at last, one final man and an old. old woman in a mechanical chair. “Obermun Zoric bon Tanlig. Obermum Alideanne bon Tanlig.”

“She is the Obermun’s mother and the eldest among the first leaders,”whispered Andrea. “She is always the last to arrive.”

Now the Yrariers could follow the music and the smell of food, down a half flight from the long, chilly hall. Marjorie advanced into the ballroom, was swung into the dance by Rigo. Stella and Tony followed. They had practiced these antique steps under the watchful eye of a dancing master sent from Commons and they now swayed across the floor as though they had danced in this remarkably intimate fashion all their lives. The dance was called a valz. From here and there about the floor couples of the bons joined them on the floor, not so many as to look enthusiastic but not so few as to appear impolite.

“We are being put in our place,” Marjorie said, smiling into Rigo’s face.

‘They can only do it if we appear to notice it.” He smiled in return, flames of fury at the backs of his eyes.

They turned to other partners. Rigo allowed no opportunity for snubs. Though he was complimentary to all the bons, he asked no woman to dance who had not been ordered to approach him. Thanks to Persun, he knew who those were. As did Tony.

“Pretend it is an Olympic event,” Marjorie had told her fretful son. “If you do it right, you will get a medal. Treat your partner as you would a willful horse, gently but firmly. It is only athletics, after all.” And so Tony danced and smiled and tried to flirt, though he had had sadly little practice at it. Stella was far better at it than he, anger only increasing her vivacity.

Marjorie drank fruit juice, provided discreetly by Asmir Tanlig, and chanted to herself as she sometimes did when duty bade her do things she did not want to do. “Bow, smile, be led into the dance. Smile, flirt, talk of nothing much. Flirt, charm, be led back to your chair. Charm, bow, begin again.” The partners came and went, in relays. She began to long for a real drink, a real conversation.

“Will you dance with me, Lady Westriding?” Sylvan spoke, appearing from somewhere behind her.

She almost sighed with relief. Sylvan was not supposed to be one of those she had to be wary of. She went into his arms as to a refuge, not fleeing precisely, and yet not holding herself aloof. He led her gently, as though she were a hooded bird, accustoming her to his movements until they seemed to dance almost as one. She thought fleetingly of her advice to Tony, and was amused. Around them other couples circled, a little silence falling as bons whispered to one another. Sylvan was always interesting because he was not predictable. Look—Sylvan! Sylvan bon Damfels. ...

Perhaps it was the quiet that drew Rigo’s attention. He was on the balcony, standing at the entrance of the gentlemen’s withdrawing room as he saw Marjorie circling in Sylvan’s arms and felt his lip lift in a familiar snarl. She danced with the young bon Damfels as though he were an old and valued friend. Or a lover.

He struggled to control his face. He could not snarl or curse as he sometimes did when he saw her contented like this, moving in some exercise of horsemanship or dance or merely walking in the garden. There was an expression on her face at certain times, an expression of unconscious joy which came from a part of her he had always coveted, a separate being he never saw when he was with her. He had seen that being in the arena or the hunt, skimming the green pastures toward the high fences, all there between the posts and over the water, winging on danger and delight, a bird soaring with a singing face. He wanted to hold that bird.

He had wooed Marjorie and won Marjorie. but he had never gained possession of the thing he’d wanted. Seeking her soul, he had taken only her body, finding there a hollowness he had not expected, a vacant citadel he could storm again and again to no effect. In his bed she became someone else, someone dressed in childlike gowns, filmy white, sprigged with blossoms, her body fragile and boneless, her eyes focused far away on something he could not see. He had used every skill with her he knew, and some he invented for her alone, but she never came from Rigo’s bed looking as she looked now, dancing with Sylvan bon Damfels, lost in movement and pleasure, eyes half closed, lips curved up in that gentle smile he had thought, once, would be his alone.

Andrea’s voice in his ear, secret as a mole.”Persun says your absence is being noted.”

He smiled and went down from the balcony, looking for women’s faces he could notice particularly, women’s bodies he could admire with a significant glance, hinting something, promising nothing. It was all a game, a game.

And below him, Sylvan left Marjorie and turned to Stella with conscious gallantry. Marjorie took yet another glass of fruit juice from a tray offered by Asmir Tanlig and stood beside Geraldria bon Maukerden to join in witty admiration of the ladies’ gowns, embroidered and beaded in fantastic designs. This, too, was a Grassian game, with its own language, its own etiquette. Persun had researched it and taught it to her.

Rigo swung past her in the dance, smiling like a mannequin at her over his partner’s shoulder.

Beyond them, through the door to the terrace, Marjorie saw Eugenie. Had anyone been appointed to dance with Eugenie? What bon? Any bon at all? Perhaps she would have to beg Sylvan to dance with her husband’s mistress. Though perhaps Shevlok would do so without prompting. He was near the door, looking out at Eugenie where she stood with someone.

With a girl? But there were no girls, no young women present. Except Stella, and Stella was dancing with Sylvan. Marjorie, possessed by a premonition of trouble, put down her glass.

Eugenie and her friend came through the terrace door, Eugenie clad all in rose, her gown fluttering behind her like sunset cloud, and the other one in a similar gown, violet as shadow, hair piled high, walking behind Eugenie with Eugenie’s own half-gliding gait, head turned to one side so that she looked across the room with an odd, one-eyed glance, sidelong.. .

A strange silence fell. Someone stopped talking and stared. Someone else’s eyes followed the first stare. A couple stopped dancing. The music went on, but the people slowed, like moving toys that had run down, slowly, stopping.

Eugenie was halfway across the room, moving toward Marjorie. She would not go to Rigo, not publicly, she knew enough for that. She knew her public role was to be merely one of the group, a guest of the embassy, invited to participate in this gaiety. She smiled, holding out her hand as her companion passed the man near the door....

And Shevlok screamed as though his heart had been torn out.

“Janetta!”

Eugenie glanced behind her uncertainly; then, seeing that her companion followed still, she came on again, her face collapsing in doubt.

“Janetta!” Now the woman beside Marjorie, Geraldria bon Maukerden, cried out that name.

And uproar. At Marjorie’s side, Geraldria dropped her glass. It splattered into tinkling shards on the floor. The music faltered. Shevlok and Geraldria were both moving, like sleepwalkers, toward the girl, the strange girl.

Dimoth bon Maukerden was shouting, and Vince, his brother, and then others. The strange girl was surrounded, seized, though she did not react. She was passed from hand to hand, passive as a rag doll, looking toward Eugenie as though all her mind resided in the other woman, ending in Shevlok’s arms.

“What have you done to her?” It was Sylvan, beside Marjorie, demanding. “What have you done?”

“To Eugenie?”

“To Janetta. To the girl.”

“I never saw her before this moment!”

“That woman who has her. What didshedo?” And when Marjorie shook her head helplessly, he went on, “Find out, quickly, or we will all be throwing dead bats at one another.”

Marjorie had no time to ask him what he meant. And then Rigo was there, and were confronting Eugenie, who was crying and disclaiming any fault and making it hard for them by babbling but telling them nothing, nothing they could use against the mounting anger all around them.

“You filth, youfragras,”trumpeted Gustave bon Smaerlok. “What have you done to Janetta?”

“Silence,” bellowed Rigo, his voice shattering the other voices. “Silence!”

Then there was a little cup of quiet into which Eugenie’s voice splashed like the thin cold juice of a bitter fruit, “I got her in Commoner Town,” wailed Eugenie, “I got her from Jandra Jellico. All I did was make her a dress and fix her hair. She was just like this when I got her....”

Some few of the gathered aristocrats perceived that she was telling the truth, as much truth as she knew. Eugenie was as open as a child, weeping, not sure what it was she had done to make all this uproar. She had meant it as a surprise, bringing her pet to the ball. She had thought it would be fun.

“I told you we should stay far from this filth,” trumpeted Gustave once again, red of face, spittle at the corners of his mouth.

Rigo was in front of him. This could not be allowed to pass. “Filth?” he snarled. “What kind of filth allows their daughters to fall into such a state, for others to find, for others to rescue and clothe and feed? Hah?”

“Rigo!” Marjorie called, moving between the two angry men. “Obermun bon Smaerlok, we do no good to call one another names. You are all very upset. So are we.”

“Upset?” Dimoth cried. “My daughter!”

“Hear me!” Rigo thundered. “When did you see her last?”

There was silence, silence as each one contemplated an answer to that question. It had been— It had been last fall. Early last fall. She had disappeared last fall. No one wanted to say, to admit it had been that long ago.

“We heard of her disappearance,” Marjorie said. “It happened long before we ever left to come here. Before you had even given permission for us to come.”

The words hung there, unimpeachably true, Janetta had gone long before these people had come, Janetta, now standing at the middle of a small circle, dancing by herself, humming, lovely as a porcelain figure and as impersonal. Nothing in her face or glance spoke of a person being there. In the circle around her was Shevlok bon Damfels, no longer clinging to her.

“It is not Janetta,” he sobbed.

“Of course it is.”

“Don’t be silly, man.”

“This is my daughter!”

“Not Janetta,” he repeated. “No. No. This person is older.”

“She would be,” cried Geraldria. “She would be older, Shevlok.”

“And not the same. Not the same.”

Who could argue that? This creature was not the same as anyone. It turned to examine them with its odd, goose-eyed gaze, circling, as though to see if anyone had anything to interest it, some grain, perhaps, some bread. The moist, pink mouth opened. “Hnnngah,” it cried, like a kitten. “Hnnngah.”

Now there were quieter voices asking Eugenie again where she had found the girl, how long she had had the girl. Now there was movement among the bon Maukerdens, Obermun and Obermum, sisters and cousins, brothers and nephews.

Vince bon Maukerden, hotheaded, poised before Rigo. “No matter when she vanished. It was here she turned up, like that! How do we know it was not you who did it to her?”

“You,” hissed Gustave from nearby, “who have not even the courage to ride with us. It is the kind of thing afragraswould do.”

“For what reason?” asked Marjorie in a loud, mild tone. “It is simple enough to learn the truth. Ask the people in Commoner Town.”

“Commoners!” sneered Gustave, “They have no honor. They would lie!”

And then movement of the crowd as they bore the strange girl away.

Some went then. Shevlok. The bon Maukerdens. Gustave and his Obermum. Others stayed. Of those who stayed, it was the bon Damfels who stayed longest, who went over and over the story Eugenie had to tell. Sylvan, particularly, who asked again and again, “Did she say anything, Madame Le Fevre? Ever? Any word? Are you sure?” To which Eugenie could only shake her head no, and no, and no. Pet had never said anything at all.

It was only later that Marjorie realized why Sylvan had been so intent. Dimity bon Damfels had vanished in the hunt as Janetta bon Maukerden had vanished. If Janetta had emerged in this fashion, might not Dimity still be found alive, somewhere, somehow?

Though there were no physicians among the bons, there were doctors in Commons. None of the aristos had ever lowered themselves to study the professions, but no such pride had prevented various commoners from flying off to Semling for a few years, returning with extensive educations. There were also no architects or engineers of any kind among the bons, but most kinds of technical expertise could be found in Commons. So it was from Commons that Lees Bergrem came to examine Janetta bon Maukerden—Dr. Lees Bergrem, head of the hospital.

A maidservant saw it all, heard it all, told a brother who told someone else who told Roald Few.

And Roald told Marjorie. “Dr. Bergrem put a thing on her head, to measure what was going on in her brain. And there was nothing, no more than a chicken.”

“Will she be able to learn again?”

“Dr. Bergrem doesn’t know, Lady. It seems so, for Miss Eugenie had taught her to dance, you know? Taught her to hum a song, too. It seems she will be able to learn. Dr. Bergrem wanted to take her back to the hospital, but Geraldria bon Maukerden wouldn’t hear of it. Foolish, that woman. Dr. Bergrem studied on Semling, she did. And on Repentance, too. She’s written books about her discoveries here on Grass. There’s those who’ve been through here who say she knows more than many doctors, even those back on Terra.”

Marjorie, ever mindful of her duty to learn everything possible about Grass, ordered copies of Dr. Bergrem’s books to be facsimile transmitted from Semling Prime.

The tell-me hummed with the story, Janetta bon Maukerden, found alive. Of all those who had vanished over the years, she was the first to be found alive. First and only, and yet what hope this sparked among certain aristocratic parents and lovers and friends. Rowena bon Damfels came to call, alone.

“You must not tell Stavenger I was here,” she said, whispering, her face swollen with fear and grief “He and Gustave have spent hours on the tell-me. bellowing to one another. He forbade me to come.”

“I would have come to you,” Marjorie cried. “You had only to ask.”

“He would have seen you and driven you away. We are still in the lapse, and there is no Hunt. He would have seen you.”

But it was really Eugenie that Rowena wanted to see, Eugenie she wanted to question, because she could not go to Commoner Town without Stavenger finding out. Marjorie stayed with them, and it was she who suggested, “Rowena, I will ask the man and the woman to come here. The man and woman who had her, in Commons. I will ask them to come here, since you say they cannot come to your estancia, and you can come here to talk to them yourself/’

A fragile bond. A little trust. After Rowena left, Marjorie sighed, shook her head, sent for Persun Pollut.

“See if you can get the order officer and his wife to come out here tomorrow. The Jellicos. Tell them the Obermum wants to talk to them, privately. Secretly, Persun.”

He laid fingers on his lips, over his eyes, noting that he said nothing, saw nothing, and then departed. He returned to say yes, they would come tomorrow, and Marjorie sent an enigmatic message on the tell-me which only Rowena would understand. While he was there, she asked Persun to explain something to her.

“At the reception, Sylvan said we would all be throwing dead bats at one another, Persun. What did he mean?”

“The Hippae do it,” he said. “At least, so I hear. Sometimes on the hunt they do it. They kick dead bats at one another.”

“Dead bats?”

“They are everywhere lady. Many dead bats.”It made no sense to Marjorie. She made a note in her book for later inquiry. There was no time now. “Rowena will talk to me,” Marjorie said to Rigo. “I think we may find this has opened a door.”

“Only while she’s in this state. When she grows calm, she’ll close us off again.”

“You don’t know that that’s true.”

“I believe it is,” he said stiffly. He had been stiff with Marjorie ever since the reception, since he had seen her dancing with Sylvan with that look on her face. She recognized his stiffness as barely withheld anger, but she believed his discomfort had been caused by Eugenie. Long ago she had chosen not to notice how matters went between Rigo and Eugenie, so she did not seem to notice now. Because she made no response to his evident annoyance, he believed she did not care, that she was probably thinking of someone else. So he grew more angry and she more silent; so they danced, a blindfolded minuet.

Something in his manner, however, declared a decision had been made.

“Rigo, you’re not—“

“Yes,” he said firmly. “I have hired a riding master.”

“Gustave was just being—“

“He was saying what all of them feel. That we are not worthy of their attention because we do not ride.”

“It isn’t riding,” she said with loathing. “Whatever it is they do, it isn’t riding. It’s loathesome.”

“Whatever it is they do,” he growled, “I will do it as well as they do!”

“You won’t expect me .. .or the children ...”

“No,” he blurted, shocked. “Of course not! What do you take me for?”

Indeed, what did she take him for? he asked himself. They were in this mess because of Eugenie, but Marjorie had not once reproached him for bringing Eugenie here, where Eugenie certainly did not belong. As a result he felt guilt toward Marjorie and chafed under the feeling. He felt he had ill-used her even though she showed no signs of caring, not now, not ever. She had never showed hostility toward him when he spent time with Eugenie, never showed anger that he was sharing another relationship. She never said anything bitter, never threatened anything. She was always there, unfailingly correct, concerned, always agreeable, acting appropriately under every circumstance, even those which he knew he had created especially to try her. He sometimes told himself he would give his soul if she would weep or scream or throw herself at him or away from him, but she did nothing of the kind.

He wondered if she confessed anger or jealousy to Father Sandoval. Did she tell him what she felt? Did she cry?

Long ago he had told himself that Marjorie would never love him as he had dreamed she would because she had given all her love to horses. He had even thought he hated Marjorie’s riding because she gave the horses the thing she would not give him—her passion. Horses. Even more than motherhood, or her charities.

But now he wondered if that were true. Was it really horses who had taken her heart? Or had she merely been waiting for something else? Someone like Sylvan bon Damfels, perhaps? What did she take him for?

He had to ask her. “Marjorie, did Sylvan bon Damfels say anything to you while you were dancing?”

“Say anything?” She turned an anxious glance upon him, still fretting over his intention to ride with the bons. not caring about anything else. “Sylvan? What kind of thing, Rigo? As I recall, he said conventional things. He complimented me and Stella on our gowns. He dances well—Since he wasn’t one of the ones Pollut warned us about, I could relax enough to enjoy the dance. Why? What do you mean?”

“I wondered.” He wondered what she was concealing. “What has Sylvan to do with ...”

What did Sylvan have to do with? With the way Rigo felt, seeing her. With the fact that Sylvan rode while he, Rigo, did not. He would not ask himself what the two things had to do with one another. He would not consider it—“Nothing. Nothing. I won’t expect you and the children to ride in the aristos’ hunt.”

“But why must you!”

“Because they will not tell me anything until they trust me, and they will not trust me until I share their... their rituals!”

She was silent, grieving, not showing it on her face. There was malice here upon Grass, malice directed at them, at the foreigners. If Rigo rode, he would ride into that malice as into quicksand. “You won’t change your mind.” It was not a question but a statement, and he did not know how hopelessly she said it, all the love she thought she owed him hanging on the answer. “You won’t change your mind, Rigo.”

“No.” In a tone that meant he would not discuss it. “No.”

An awkward machine, the riding machine. Awkward and heavy, but little more ponderous than the riding master, Hector Paine, with his dour face and ominous expression and black garb, as though he were in mourning for all those he had taught how to die.

Rigo had picked an unused room in the winter quarter to use as a riding salon, and he came there with Stella, she very busy playing Daddy’s little girl. There Rigo heard with disbelief that he would be expected to start his lessons at four hours per day. Stella did not seem to hear, did not seem to be paying attention. She was stroking the riding machine, humming to herself, not seeming to notice anything much.

The black-clad instructor was emphatic. “In the morning, an hour exercise, then an hour ride. Again later in the day. By the end of the week, perhaps we can manage three hours, then four. We work up to twelve hours at a time, every other day.”

“My God, man!”

Stella felt the blunted barbs on the neck of the gleaming simulacrum, ran her finger around the loop of the reins where they hung on the lowest barb.

“Did you think it was easy, sir? Hunts often last for ten or eleven hours. Sometimes they go on longer.”

“That leaves little time for anything else!”

“To those who Hunt, Your Excellency, there is nothing else. I thought you would have noticed that.” There was nothing sneering in the man’s voice, but Rigo gave him a sharp look. Stella had drifted away to a corner where she sat down behind some piled furniture, being inconspicuous, being unnoticed, eyes avid.

“You were available on short notice,” Rigo snarled.

“I am available because Gustave bon Smaerlok told me to be available.”

“He hopes to find me incapable, eh?”

“He would be gratified if you proved unable, I think. I speak only from impression, not from anything he has said.”

“And have you agreed to report to him?”

“Only to tell him when I believe you are capable of riding in a Hunt. I will tell you this, Your Excellency. With the young ones, we begin before they are two years old—what would that be in your terms? Ten or eleven years of age? While they are still children we begin working every other day, every week, every period, throughout the seasons, perhaps for a year. A Grassian year. More than six of yours.”

Rigo did not answer. For the first time he began to realize that he might not have long enough to ride to the hounds. Not if it took him as long as the children....

Well, then he could not let it take as long. Focusing all his attention, he listened to what the riding master had to say.

In the corner, hidden behind the screen of displaced chairs and sofas, Stella listened too, focused no less intently on what the riding master had to say.

She had danced with Sylvan bon Damfels.

Only for a little time_:enough time to know that everything she wanted was there, in his skin, behind those eyes, dwelling in that voice, in the touch of those hands.

When she came here she had thought she would never forget Elaine, never forget the friend she had left behind. Now there was no room, not even in memory, for anyone but Sylvan. When he had smiled at her on the dance floor, she had realized that she had been thinking of him since she had seen him first, at the bon Damfels Hunt. She had seen Sylvan then, in his riding clothes, seen him mount, seen him ride. On the dance floor, as her body moved with his, she had remembered each time she had seen him, each time he had spoken to her, her passionate heart demanding, as it always did, more. More. More of Sylvan bon Damfels. She would ride with Sylvan bon Damfels as she was dancing with Sylvan bon Damfels, as she could imagine—oh, imagine doing other things with Sylvan bon Damfels.

He had looked into her eyes.

He had told her she was lovely.

Behind the furniture she exulted, glad for the first time that she was here, on Grass. Ears pricked for every word the riding master was telling her father, she sucked in the information and remembered it all. She was determined that she, too, would learn. Quickly. More quickly than anyone had ever learned.

The same aircar which had brought the riding master to Opal Hill had also brought James and Jandra Jellico, who waited in Marjorie’s study for Rowena’s arrival.

Rowena, when she came at last, brought Sylvan with her.

“Tell us everything you can,” Sylvan asked the Jellicos, his voice gentle. “I know neither of you did anything reprehensible, so just tell us everything you can.”

Marjorie and Tony sat to one side, listening. No one suggested they should not be present. If they had, Marjorie had already decided she would listen outside the door.

There was so little to tell, and yet they spun it into an hour’s telling, each little thing said ten times over.

“One thing you got to remember,” Jelly told Sylvan. “lust because Ducky Johns’ in the business she is, that’s no reason to think she isn’t honest. She’s as honest as anybody. And I believe she found this Janetta right where she said she did, on her own back porch under her clothesline.”

“But how?” cried Rowena, for perhaps the tenth time.

Jelly took a deep breath. He was tired of evasion, tired of euphemism, tired of bowing to the well-known eccentricity of the bons. He decided to tell the hard truth and see what this bon woman made of it. “Ma’am, last anybody saw of her, she was riding one of those beasts. Now anybody with any wits at all is going to suppose, wherever she ended up, that beast took her there or sent her there. And that’s what I think.”

So there it was. Oh, there it was, lying before them, the sound and look of it, a barbed and violent monster, a Hippae, drawn into it at last, told off by name, the aspect of the whole thing that none of the bons had mentioned, that none of the bons would speak of or allow others to talk of. The Hippae. The Hippae took the girl, or one of them did, everyone knew that. They, the Hippae, did something to her, did anyone doubt? They hid her. They kept her. Then she showed up again. Who knows why? Who knows how? Marjorie felt the questions bubbling and kept silent, kept her hand on Tony’s as she felt him, too, quivering with questions unanswered, unasked. The bons had blamed the Yrariers rather than the Hippae. Even now, Rowena did not respond. Why?

The Jellicos made their farewells and went out. Rowena wept, clinging to Sylvan. He fixed Marjorie with a stern face, forbidding her to speak. She cast her eyes down, feeling his will upon her as though he had touched her with his hands.

“Mama, would you like to lie down for a moment?” he asked Rowena.

She nodded, awash with tears.

“Tony, take her, will you?” asked Marjorie, wanting him to take the woman away, wanting to be left alone with Sylvan, in order to ask ...

“A moment,” Rowena said.

Marjorie nodded.

“Lady Westriding ... Marjorie. A time may come when I can offer you help as you have offered me. If my life hangs on it, I will still help you.” She laid her tear-wet hand on Marjorie’s and went out with Tony, leaving her son behind.

“Don’t,” he said when they were alone, seeing the question in her face. “I don’t know.”

She could not hold the words in. “But you live here! You’re familiar with the beasts.”

“Shhh,” he said, looking over his shoulder, running his finger inside a collar suddenly too tight. “Don’t say beasts. Don’t say animals. Don’t say that. Not even to yourself. Don’t think it.” He gripped his throat as though something there was choking him.

“What do you say?”

“Hippae. Mounts,” he gargled. “And not eventhatwhere they might hear. Nothing where they might hear.” He gagged, begging for air.

She stared into his face, seeing the beads of sweat standing out upon his forehead, seeing him struggle to hold his face quiet. “What is it?”

The struggle grew more intense. He could not answer her.

“Shhh,” she said, taking his hands into her own. “Don’t talk. Just think. Is it something ... is it something they do to you?”

A nod, the merest hint of a nod.

“Something they do ... to your brain? To your mind?”

A flicker of eyelid, tiny. If she had not learned to read almost invisible twitches, she would not have seen it.

“Is it ...” She thought coldly of what she had seen at the bon Damfels estancia. “Is it a kind of blanking out?”

He blinked, breathing deeply.

“A compulsion?”

He sighed, letting go. His head sagged.

“A compulsion to ride, but an inability to think about riding, an inability to talk about riding.” She said it to herself, not to him, knowing it was true, and he looked at her out of shining eyes. Tears?

“Which,” she continued, watching him closely, “must be more intense the more frequently you ride.” She knew she was right. “You managed to speak to us once right after a Hunt....”

“They had gone,” he gargled, panting. “After a long Hunt, they go away. Today they are here, all around Opal Hill, nearby!”

“During the winter, the compulsion almost leaves you?” she asked. “And during the summer? But in spring and fall, you are possessed by it? Those of you who ride?”

He only looked at her, knowing she needed no confirmation.

“What do they do when winter ends? To bring you into line? Do they gather around your estancias? In their dozens? Their hundreds?” He did not deny it. “They gather and press upon you, insisting upon the Hunt. There must also be some pressure to make the children ride. Some compulsion there, as well?”

“Dimity,” he said with a sigh.

“Your little sister.”

“My little sister.”

“Your father ...”

“Has ridden for years, Master of the Hunt, for years, like Gustave....”

“So,” she said, thinking she must tell Rigo. Must somehow make him understand.

“I’ll take Mama home,” he whispered, his face clearing.

“How have you withstood them?” her voice was as low as his. “Why have they not bitten off your arm or leg? Isn’t that what they do when one of you tries to stand fast?”

He did not answer. He did not need to answer. She could puzzle it out for herself. It was not that he withstood them while he was riding. If he had done so, he would have vanished or been punished for it. Oh, no, when he rode he was one of them, like all the rest. The secret was that he recovered quickly when the ride was over. Quickly enough to say some things, to hint some things.

“You warned us that time,” she said, reaching out to him. “I know how hard for you it must have been.”

He took her hand and laid it along his cheek. Only that. But it was thus that Rigo saw them.

Sylvan excused himself, bowed, and went away to find Rowena. “A pleasant tete-a-tete.” Rigo smiled fiercely. She was too preoccupied to notice the quality of that smile. “Rigo, you must not ride.”

“Oh, and why is that?”

“Sylvan says—“

“Oh, I think it matters very little what Sylvan says.” She looked at him uncertainly. “It matters a great deal. Rigo, the Hippae are not merely animals. They ... they do something to their riders. Something to their brains.”

“Clever Sylvan to have thought up such a tale.”

“Do you think he invented it? Don’t be silly. It’s obvious. It’s been obvious to me since we saw the first Hunt, Rigo.”

“Oh?”

“And since last night. For the love of God, Rigo. Didn’t it strike you as odd that no one blamed the Hippae? Here’s this girl who disappeared during a Hunt, and no one blames the Hippae she was riding on?”

“If you disappeared during a Hunt, my dear, and turned up later as a courtesan in some petty principality, should I blame your horse?” He gave her a wintry glance, then left her there, staring after him, trying desperately to figure out what had happened.